Running Away

[FindingTree]

Does anyone ever feel like dropping everything and moving to a new place and starting over. I just don’t feel like myself and I haven’t for a while but it’s been so long that I don’t know who I was to even go back. I feel lost and confused and most days I’m just angry for no reason. People think my life is all together because I just smile and never complain but in reality I’m hurting and fighting a fight against myself and losing. But it’s a never ending cycle and I don’t know how to get off so running away seems like that solution. Ughhh and right now all I wanna do is sleep.

[Anxiouslisa]

Yes! I feel like this all the time. Hope is feel better emotionally if I just ran away.

[FindingTree in reply to Anxiouslisa]

Exactly it’s like if I run away it’ll be no problems.

[StudentRN1122 in reply to Anxiouslisa]

I have had this feeling but what keeps me from running away is the fact that the same problem will be there when I get back & even if I decided not to go back , I would feel even more defeated because I allowed that problem to run me away instead of me facing it .It seems like its hard either way

[StudentRN1122]

Good Morning, My names is Ashley. I am a nursing student joining to observe the more personal side of anxiety. I know that for even me (mostly due to school) I have mental breakdowns on a monthly basis.

[FindingTree in reply to StudentRN1122]

During college my anxiety was manageable (kinda) but after graduating and starting “life” it’s become less mental and more physical. It’s not just my mind, it’s my body as well. The last breakdown I had I couldn’t stop shaking and couldn’t eat for a few days.

[StudentRN1122 in reply to FindingTree]

omg, yikes. That's scary , I cant eat when I have too much on my mind. What do you do to manage it now?

[FindingTree in reply to StudentRN1122]

I went to the doctor and he gave me medicine that helped but once it ran out I just make sure to stay hydrated if I can’t eat.

[kenster1]

hi yeah I do everyday but if we run away the problem always follows and things can become worse.

[FindingTree in reply to kenster1]

I know I’ve thought about it like that too, if I leave the problem is within myself so it’ll follow but what if it’s not me.

[kenster1 in reply to FindingTree]

if you left your home say for a fresh start good chance you would lose contact with family and friends.if you leave to get away from a partner say then it would be good to have a plan.people leave usually on a spur of the moment with hardly any money no place to say and that makes the struggle harder.most of the time the wiser decision is to face the problem head on if that's possible.

[FindingTree in reply to kenster1]

Your absolutely right but I can’t really pin point one problem and at this point I feel like maybe it’s me.

[kenster1 in reply to FindingTree]

hopefully things work out so you don't have to be thinking this.about 2 1/2 years I sat looking at the driest parts in the uk hostels that took dogs I was prepared to leave home and go homeless just because of terrible stress and anxiety its reared its head again over the last week but ive been trying to think rational and take on some of the coping technics I picked up from counselling.

[FindingTree in reply to kenster1]

Wow I can’t imagine going through that. I just recently started therapy I’m hoping to learn some coping techniques as well. I try to think positive but knowing life has always been against me kinda makes it hard but I’m trying.

[kenster1 in reply to FindingTree]

yeah hopefully as your therapy progresses these thoughts will empty from your mind.over 30 year life seems to have gone against me but I keep trying and hoping.

[quitter333]

well what exactly obstructs you from traveling a llittle?

people who love you probably rather would see you happy and away than a sad mess at home donit

[FindingTree in reply to quitter333]

I have no where to go or even an idea of where to go, all I know is I don’t wanna be here. As far as what’s obstructing me is finances, traveling cost a lot in my opinion and money is already a stress factor for me.

[quitter333 in reply to FindingTree]

Steve Kroschel wildlife center. Go see wolverines.

Come to Eastern Europe. Its cheap and cool. Latvia is modern but old school (no such dirty places like slovakia, but also no disneylands. westerners like it hwre)

[FindingTree in reply to quitter333]

I wish but it’d be pricing moving from the US lol

[quitter333 in reply to FindingTree]

travel, not move. Ah, trust yourself. I bet when problems strike, you'd find a way out and survive.

[Cyam]

I’ve had to re-start life many times, and am about to do it again, switching jobs and moving to another new city. It may feel like leaving what you have will make it all better, but in reality starting over is really hard. Running away is more of a fantasy - try to think of the things you have (relationships, routines, stability, etc) that you wouldn’t have if you started over somewhere else. Maybe thinking about it from that perspective will help you see what you have in a more positive light? (I’m currently trying to do the same, to feel good about this upcoming move and restarting again... it’s not easy. I suppose the grass always seems greener on the other side of the fence).

[FindingTree in reply to Cyam]

I try to think of all the things I have now and how it’d be different to up and leave it all but I also feel maybe it’d be good. I don’t know why, I can’t explain is nor half the things that go through my head.

[NeuronerdDoaty]

I have run away. I’m known for it. I got a job in another country, packed up my kids and left. I called my Pops 48 hours later and let him know we were safe. I’m a runner. I start over. My career is helpful so people don’t realize but I’m running. My kids were always fed and love an adventure. I see them taking on the next step in life with no fear. I left a house full of furniture once. I called a friends daughter to go get what she wanted and sell the rest. I leave parts of me behind and take on new traits if I feel like it. I’m about to do it again. I’m taking my husband of 4 years and my dog of 4 years this time though.

[FindingTree in reply to NeuronerdDoaty]

I understand, I feel like moving and discovering something new and if I don’t like do it over again. It sounds crazy but life is crazy.

[NeuronerdDoaty in reply to FindingTree]

That’s not crazy. There’s so much fun and so many great people to meet. There are beautiful things to see. I won’t live long enough to run as much as I want. You start over and share only what you want. New people don’t have to know things. You get to choose. I’ve been in one house almost two years now. I feel the the urge. Something is waiting for me out there and these people here want to get too close. That’s not who I am.

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that's me exactly. i want to sleep until my reset button has been pushed and then get a new job somewhere else