So, I've been trying to get back into playing music after a nearly 15 year absence. It's too long a story to explain but basically, I did not (originally) quit playing due to social anxiety, though I have always been a very shy person and had a lot of stage fright before playing, but faced it somehow in the past.
I played a gig last September with some friends and told them I wanted to have some songs written before we practiced again. I haven't written anything since. Though I have been working at it.
I feel like the music is coming along, getting to more my liking-- the lyrics, (as always) are trickier.
It's not that I feel incompetent as a writer (not to sound big headed) but I've known I could write for a long time. (I really spend an obsessive amount of time on it, it should be half-way decent 
) My issue with the lyrics is, how I feel about my feelings-especially the "dark" feelings. I feel a lot of shame over feeling how I feel. I try to tell myself that a natural reaction to feeling depressed is to write depressed lyrics, a reasonable song to write when your sad, is a sad song. Well duh.
I heard Paul Simon say that "you just have to get the words to where you're comfortable singing them"
I guess I'm just not there yet.
Anyway, anyway
I promised my therapist that I would make it to an open-mic this week, just to open my ears to the musical air. I found something that I think I'd like--it's actually a full performance, tonight (Saturday, which is always more people and more anxiety for me) but it stands out from all the other options I have this week. So, I'll got to find a way to get my body out of my car and into that bar this evening. Wish me luck!
Idk
🎼Need some song lyrics!🎼
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