Waiting for help

[Kevin160]

Until i get my first therapy appointment in ONE MONTH .. i am trying my best to keep myself calm , certain thoughts have been getting to me more than usual, because i keep remembering this exact time last year i was struggling even more , so it feels a bit like ptsd because whenever i recall all the panic attacks i got , thinking im going to die, my high bp , lack of sleep, the hopelessness , eventhough it might be silly to some but its really hard to escape the thoughts because they feel so real and when the situation is so general its hard not to remember it because anything can remind you of your panic attacks , especially for me most of the attacks were at home.

I blocked them for a while but ever since i read my old journals , and experienced a really panicky new years eve , i become more sensitive to anxiety than before , so triggers are more common , and im really having difficulty with finding ways to calm me like before, i know it takes time which is the only thing im thankful for that due to my experiences the sense of hopelessness isnt there , so im not at rock bottom but im still having extreme anxiety and i really want therapy , again throughout the time until i go , i want you guys to keep me focused on going because i know i will find a way to avoid it or not go because im too scared it happened endless times but if i stay like this my main fear might come true and my physical health will be affected, stress and anxiety arent good for the body and i want to take care of myself and i need help with that because unlike people who dont struggle with anxoety , i dont know how to control my anxiety or how to cope with it

Just wrote this to vent a bot because today was a little rough, i have a long break so there isnt much to do to dostract myself and its just me and my thoughts , any advices or just conversations are welcomes

[Hidden]

Hey, I certainly can relate. Been having panic attacks since I was very young 3rd grade , mostly generated by my 7 brothers and all the guys I played sports with growing up. Being too different was driving up my anxiety, depression. Today it's still anxiety and depression but for other reasons. Anyway Yeah if you need to talk feel free to private message me. I'm always looking for a kindred spirit/friend to support.

[Kevin160 in reply to Hidden]

So thankful , you are so very kind ❤️, sad to hear you are also dealing with some of the anxiety and depression u once had , i hope it gets better and you can also vent and talk to me whenever you want

[mayaohh]

Thank you so much for sharing this. I have been having very similar feelings of anxiety, the fear I’m going to die, lack of sleep, and hopelessness and it is very hard right now for me to stop these thoughts from entering my mind. So to read this post helps me very much to feel like I’m not alone.

[Kevin160 in reply to mayaohh]

Well , im probably not the right person to try to help as im suffering from this, but let me tell you i dealt with this more severly last year and due to many times i gotten better and how many toold and methods there are out there in the world, you dont ever need to worry about hopelessness, there are countless things i found that help, between natural remedies, meds, meditation, healing crystals , religious acts if you practice any , maybe supplements and vitmains that specialise in treating anxiety , therapy , breathing exercises, apps , podcasts, videos, writing journals , talking to someone , hot showers , positive self talk,

So even though anxiety can sometimes be hard to beat , i believe hoplessness doesnt need to be there , dont overthink towards the future as you never know what will happen and at the same time the worst case scenario in our brains doesnt exist

[Hidden]

I can relate, every since everything i went through i now have nightmares of it all, i can understand its very hard, feel free to message me if you need, we are all here for you! If you need it, you can vent or just need someone to help you through something, I hope that you therapy session goes well, ive just recently gotten back into therapy, it might be a little hard to open up at first but you just need to find the right one, you've got this!

[Kevin160 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you so much for the support, very grateful there are many people here who i cant talk to while i wait for my therapy sessions to start ❤️..if you ever need to vent as well , you can message me anytime

[Hidden in reply to Kevin160]

Thank you!