Hey everyone , my b day was recently , i was a bit anxious leading up to it because im not the type of person who likes surprises, and i just was worried it was going to get ruined , its been 8 days since i last felt anxious to a breaking point of got a panic attack , which is a great accomplishment considering at one point i never though this could happen, i have to remind myself over and over again that anxiety and constant panic are harmless, even if they were that would be if the panic lasted for long periods which wont happen, but its harder as time passes because u start to forget how anxiety feels and for me , taking showers trigger panic attacks or anxiety attacks for me , so this week , everytime i showered i felt a bit anxious after it, it triggers attacks for me because the first time i went to the doctor and my whole blood pressure obsession and anxiety started was me exercising then going to shower, the whole heart palpitations caused panic and i just got a severe panic attack during my shower and i just rushed out to measure my bp which was 150/100 , and this is how it started, so now whenever i shower i get a bit anxious because i remember the emotions and the terror and fear because i wasnt knowledgable about it, i thought im having a heart attack, i learned tons and tons and tons of information about anxiety, i was introduced to breathing exercises and meditation , i was introduced to more methods to cope, i was encouraged to face my fears nit avoid them, and the most important one was to accept it wont kill me, which was what helped tremendeously ,
My birthday was ok, i went out with friends and family, it was casual but fun , i never really realized about how the people around me actually cared, i was so focused on my flaws and negative thoughts that i didnt realize people liked my personality and some features i never noticed, this week was so mind opening, i still get anxious sometimes as i said especially after showers and exercising too, it triggers attacks but when inrealize it wont kill me, and i have gotten so much better at not allowing irrational thoughts creep in , so its much better than before, which seem to make the anxiety much less severe, because i dont worry about stopping it or trying to calm myself, i just experience it and its the best part
Again i genuinely thank everybody for their help, im so glad i found this group, otherwise i wouldnt have learnt so much, i still have a long way..but i am more motivated than ever, because i never felt as close to my old self as i did this month in general, upsome of it was severe panic, but the whole month of february , i had one whole week of anxiety, then rest, ten anxiety, now rest, so i never had an equal amount of both, it used to be just panic, all the time...i want to get even better so far so good
However i fear telling myself im doing better, because im afraid i will jinx it, and i did that before and i always got worse and worse, i just have a mini anxiety attack whenever i think to myself oh you are like ur old self, and i feel like a hypocrite, or that im kidding myself or tricking myself, because i know that there is a chance i get worse, and i really im not looking forward to it but we wil see
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Happy birthday Kevin! I’m glad you had a good time. It’s also good that you realized that so many people care about you. That was huge for me. I was amazed at how many friends and relatives are genuinely concerned with my situation. My neighbour across the street who I know only casually told me she’s home all the time and if I need anything including a ride I should call her. I was really touched by this. When you suffer from depression and anxiety it’s easy to focus on everything that’s wrong in your life. Trying to focus on the positives can really help improve your outlook. I wish you success with your ongoing battle. It is a battle but it can be won.
Yes you are very right, for me since this whole thing started i started feeling like im not as of a good person as others, i was insecure about alot of things, including having true friends, i was worried about people leaving me, but i ealized people really are concerned whenever i explained my anxiety and any problems basically, realizing that helped me alot to realize i have a good support system from friends because my family werent very supportive, however now its changed a bit and im even more thankful
Thank you so much for the birthday wishes, you are so kind
Thank you so much, i was glad to see all the progress too, seeing how i couldnt ever handle stress, and my only emotion was fear, i never even considered how likely something could happen, i would just make assumptions and scenarios without weighing the factors, i learnt alot and its all thank to you all ❤️❤️ Forever grateful
Secondly, I still am astonished how similar we are. I get really anxious taking showers because I get heart palpitations, as well. However, I am more worried about the fast heart rate I experience than my blood pressure.
I always look forward to reading your posts, because it’s like I’m reading about my own life. While I by no means wish for anyone to go through what I’m going through, it’s comforting knowing that someone else is experiencing the same thing. I hope you feel better soon.
Well, thankfully i feel better, these past few months were just constant panic attack after panic attack, irrational thoughts, i just thought i was going crazy or just die for all the constant fear, it didnt happen, so it became easier to listen to what everyone is telling me which is that you can experience constant panic and nothing will happen , because its not harmful, even if it was it wouldnt be for a long time, and no stress lasts that long , stress fluctuates its never the same ...i learned so much more , sorry to hear about ur experiences , i know its frustrating but it gets better, for me i reached rock bottom where i couldnt even see a future for my just constant panic and death, i couldnt think of enjoy doing things i like, i couldnt think about my life , because just thinking about anything brings fear because it was embded that im going to die or just live with this, just accepting it , not as an enemy, but just a normal thing, stress is not harmful and it not scary until u allow it to be, now i experience stress sometimes, but because im aware and i dont overthink i dont get so worried to a point where its controlling
For me what triggers it as i mentioned was showers because thats when my first panic attack started, i didnt know what it was and i thought i was having a heart attack or a stroke, so now whenever i shower i just feel panicky, i tried back and they didnt cause much stress like before, maybe give it a shot
Thamks for the birthday wished u r so kind , i wish you all the best, if u need anything my chat is always open and anyone is welcome
I too am feeling much better than I was before. I thought, since about Christmas-time to early Jan that I was going to die of a heart related condition. It was awful, and I just could not convince myself otherwise. I hit rock bottom, I cried a lot because I didn’t think I’d ever feel okay again. I am now on a 30-day Holter Monitor, but the cardiologist said whatever it is is totally benign and most likely anxiety.
I finally am not worried constantly. It’s such a relief, honestly. Like a huge weight has been lifted off my chest. Hope everything keeps looking up for you.
Yes so,far so good, my circumstances werent on my side for the last two months, i had a couple health conditions, my mom had a cancer scare, so many family arguments, my brother who i dont have a good relationship with and is totally obnoxious came to visit for a whole month and caused so much problems, i developed anxiety, i lost confidence in everything, starting panicking over anthing, and felt like i dont know my own body and mind, i felt like i didnt know anything and i questioned the slightest , i suffered physical symptoms, derelization, and panic constantly weeks at a time, and i would sometimes find ways to feel better but sometimes i would feel like im falling apart ...
Happy belated birthday and kudos for tackling your fears. It's one of the best ways to do it as long as it isn't traumatic for you. It sounds like your shower makes you feel like you're in a vulnerable spot. I don't blame you for running off for a BP check, but I hope you know the results of that are from anxiety as you basically summed up. You had anxiety going, and then you flew to check it (a cardio rush)...so all of your statistics were sure to be increased. It sounds like your coping and mindset is exactly where it should be. Keep reminding yourself about how the panic attacks can't kill you. A lot of books encourage giving your anxiety a stupid cartoon image and name....talk to them playfully but advise them they get zero input on living your life. They can make suggestions (your heart is beating fast!!!) that we will note and "take care of later", but they aren't allowed in the driver's seat.
It's really good and makes me happy to read stories like this because it shows we can ultimately decide if we're going to be anxious by practicing a discipline such as in the manner you do. It takes time, patience, and energy, but it sounds like all of that was worth it as you're enjoying life and having good times. So kudos and glad to hear you're on a much better path. Happy birthday and take care!
First thank you so much for the birthday wishes , it means so much ❤️
Youare definately right , about 3 months ago, i had a few things going on in my life that made my stress levels rise, i didnt consider myself with anxiety, i was just the type lf person to worry over the little things because i tend to overthink, it wasmt constant but i would just worry alot
My moms cancer scare, my family fights , and a few other things, in a nutshell, things were falling apart it seemed, i started losing my appetite and getting heartburn , my health anxiety kicked in as always and i started worrying about all tons of diseases between cancer or things that are not even logical
I went to a doctor in late december who measured my bp , it was slightly elevated , he explained it could be white coat syndrome, i wasnt too worried but i wasmt knowledgable about anything regarding stress anxiety or blood pressure levels, he said my symptoms point to gastritis and im fine
I had blood tests, stool sample, all good ..however that night i was showering and i suddenly started thinking about it, i had a bp monitor and started thinking what if i had a heart attack, it was so irrational but my mind used to go that way alot , now i have more control and realize its not realistic
Anyways i started measuring my bp that night rushing out of the shower and panicking in it, my bp was high all night and i was feeling the worse i did in a long time , my family werent the most supportive at the time, no one used to be around, and i was alone throughout this whole experience and all my panic attacks and stress, i thought i would die , kept making these scenarios, however i started meditating, and i joined this forum which helped me realize my problem isnt so uncommon, many people have the same problems and i felt like im not weird or going crazy, i stopped worrying alot aboutt my blood pressure after learning breathing techniques that lower it, for the last momth i measured it and it was ideal bp
However i started developing constant anxiety still, i realized that i still worry it will kill me, amd it became a habit to worry all the time , i kept oanicking and it gotten much worse because i didnt feel there was a solution, i started realizing after many days that it wont kill , regardless of all what i hear from people , and read sometimes its harmful but its really not , im in great health , i still panic iver my migraines sometimes that i get but it has gotten better, now im just living day by day, my stress levels are better and i have much mire knowledge and control
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