I hope for a blessed 2021 physically and emotionally, my anxiety journey started around new years 2018, since then every new year i get severe panic attacks because of the same at osphere and feelings rushing back of hopelessness, since i didnt know what anxiety even was i thought i was dying
But not this year, it was a good NYE, im happy for the progress,
im still dealing with setbacks, i have been struggling a bit this past few days with intrusive thoughts but working through them, its frustrating because i struggle with things i think i overcame a long time ago, like how i panic over anticipation over the silliest things sometimes, which didnt bother me one bit at some point this year but now it does a bit, or how i thought i overcame some triggers and intrusive thoughts i had, i would get them and not be bothered for weeks, now i feel a bit tense and anxious
but it humbles me that anxiety isnt about overcoming, its never magically over, it sucks but thats ok, if you ever stumble and go back to an old habit, or start worrying about something or someone you thought you are done worrying about , its ok, but its not ok to keep that progress and effort to stay ok and get yourself out of that setback and keep moving forward
xx
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