Need to vent

[Kevin160]

It wasnt the best week, mentally i did ok, was calm all week, but a few days ago someone broke the windshield and windows of our cars in the middle of the night, was a rough day with the police and i woke up in a fright that night and no one slept that night after it, my bp was 140/90 which is expected and i was shaking uncontrollably because i was worried about my family , so i always feel like im paranoid or i have alot of trust issues or i think the world is out to get me so that day wasnt helpful in treating that matter 🤦🏻‍♂️

I have been doing ok though the rest of the week, november and december were pretty calm months , i didnt have any anxiety attacks except for good reason and it was short lived the rest of those months were almost entirely peaceful or mostly i guess , what helped most is realizing that i shouldnt avoid stress 100% because thats simply not possible , i was too health anxious this period of time. I went through so much and im still trying my best to end this year on a high note unlike last year where i celebrated new years with endless panic attacks and high blood pressure for a 17 year old

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I hope that this new year will be better for you. We are all here for you

[Kevin160 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you so much , i joined here a couple weeks after new years , i was at rock bottom and i never thought i would bounce back , im still not at 100% but im much better and i want to live life and be happy and healthy , i have this intense fear of anxiety killing me , always on the back on my mind , i am going to uni next year and im starting my life

[Hidden in reply to Kevin160]

That's good. I'm still working on it☺.

[CrimsonMama]

Heya Kevin. Feeling pretty crummy myself so not in a very chatty mood but wanted to say you sound like your doing OK. You are having more calm periods than not and anyone would be shaken after what happened to your car!

Something I felt helpful once was to download a diary and then just make a quick entry every day for a few months. Give it a title "good day" or "bad day" so later on you can look back at a glance and - what I found - was you can see that actually bad things or bad days happen a lot less frequently than you think or feel. The good days far outweigh the bad! But sometimes it feels longer because we linger on the bad feelings.

[Kevin160 in reply to CrimsonMama]

Hey i appreciate your feedback eventhough you werent in the mood , luckily i have been doing the journal thing for a long time now, everyday or few days i check in by venting about my feelings or things that happen in my daily life with family and friends etc.. it definitely helps . Again i appreciate all the support 😅