Slept well, calm , as the day went by , i started to feel a bit anxious maybe because my last new year's was filled with panic , which is what this year is turning to , was talking to my sister about this year being harder for me, she then forcede to talk about it , and i talked to her about so many things , it was supposed to make me feel better , but i ended up feeling like im living them again, i felt very panicky my bp was very high , it was like deja vu all over again , i have been trying for hours just to calm a bit but it's really hard , my left arm is hurting and i cant seem to calm whenever this happens and i just can't manage to think about all that i overcome this year rather all the panic , im very nauseous and just scared , i feel like im relapsing again because this week has been feeling really like the first time i got anxiety , i just can't escape these thoughts.
New year's anxiety: Slept well, calm... - Anxiety and Depre...
New year's anxiety
I'm really sorry you are feeling this way. It sounds a bit like PTSD, when your mind relives and anticipates the fear and the threat to our very existence. I know the ideal is to think of just this moment and what threat you face right now... probably nothing. I know your fear, I became very unwell at this time of year 2 years ago and I still feel myself stiffening with fear even if I just experience a cold at this time of year. You are not alone and it will pass, keep in touch 💛
It really is because there is nothing scary to me right now except for the memories that i just dug up , i just feel the same way i did last new year's, cant shake away the fear not by breathing techniques not by meditation , not by anything because this is too overwhelming ...im getting all these feelinge i forgot existed and memories i didnt know about , so intense , so hard
It's ok to feel whatever it is you feel. I don't normally find writing things down they helpful but I have s few times when I have felt out of control and overwhelmed. What I wrote didn't make much sense but it did help just to scribble down all the confused thoughts and the things that frightened me the most. I felt like I wanted to climb out my own skin it was so hard. We are here with you , hold on tight you will be ok x
I've been there. Someone forced me to say things that have happened to me and as soon as I could I bolted out of there. This new year is going to be tough, and I didn't want to be alive for this next year, but here I am. Talk to me if you need to, I'm always here
Exactly, told my sister about all those panic attacks, the ocd tendencies, and dug the past which i didnt talk about before , my mom's cancer diagnosis , my parents divorce and all the family problems etc.. i just got this rush of feelings and I just feel this constant panic attacks i can barely breathe
yeah, sometimes it's really hard to talk about things especially when someone is forcing them out of you. It kind of makes you wonder if they knew all along.
You certainly are not alone, Kevin.
Many are feeling scared or feeling regrets about the past.
I try to remember that the past is gone, wiped clean by God's hand.
He's in full control & no matter what 2020 may bring we can fully
rely on Him.
There's a "school" of "hard knocks" but we learn lessons. Don't worry.
We can "graduate" from that old school. You've been progressing and
will continue. Your "diploma" is waiting <3
Continued prayers, Kevin... from my house to yours.
Sometimes talking about it brings up those old feelings. I swear I had a similar talk with my sister and we both felt worse at the end of the conversation. But I don't want to dwell on the past. I really want to set positive goals this year and BE positive as well. We can do it Kevin!!
It really did , the conversation made me feel really anxious which talking usually doesnt do to me , i usually feel better but i guess i just felt all the memories too deep and because it happened a year ago almost exactly im feeling the atmosphere and the same way i did , and i feel like im relapsing eventho i got over most of my anxiety triggers
Hey, Kevin. Just to let you know I’m thinking of you.
You are going to be OK. The feelings you’re having will stop, and you’ll feel better.
Kevin,
Youth is on your side, trust me. Your feelings may be strong but 'fresh"
In other words, your brain is not damaged. That's an important fact. <3