Don't feel like myself. Muddled head

[Coffeeshop]

Does anyone else feel their brain is muddled all the time? I just don't feel like myself. It's hard to explain. It's so abstract. I'm just not functioning. I can't think straight, concentrate or absorb anything. Reading and watching tv is difficult to follow. I'm easily overwhelmed. Its hard to be social.

At first I thought I was simply over medicated. I went off one medication that took me over a year to do so. I lowered another and tried to lower a third. But My head keeps getting worse. I just can't seem to "just be". I have to push through everything like molasses. I have to force myself to do everything. Even things that I'm supposed to enjoy but I don't anymore. I feel so disconnected from everything.

Does this make sense to anybody? Someone mentioned to me this could be ADHD but my head is a constant condition. Any help is greatly appreciated. I've had MDD and anxiety for at least 35 years but it's only the last couple of years that I've been having this trouble with my head.

Thank you for listening.

[LazyXrayEyes2255]

Have you spoken about this to doctor?

Maybe stress, burnout or side effects to medication etc

[Coffeeshop in reply to LazyXrayEyes2255]

Yes. I constantly complain about it to my psychiatrist and therapist. I've been to a neurologist too. All they gave me were pain pills for the headaches. I've had a CT and an MRI. Negative.

[Cherryfizz34 in reply to Coffeeshop]

might be psychological? How's your environment?

[Coffeeshop in reply to Cherryfizz34]

It could be psychological. My environment is crap. My marriage is on life support. I have a wonderful son though and this gets in the way of the time I spend with him. He's 14. I really want to enjoy him as he's getting older but my head just blocks everything out. My head won't let me enjoy anything. Nothing gives me a respite.

[Cherryfizz34 in reply to Coffeeshop]

Maybe you feel you don't deserve to spend quality time with him due to your health?

[Coffeeshop in reply to Cherryfizz34]

No, that's not it. That I'm sure.

[Cherryfizz34 in reply to Coffeeshop]

okay

[LazyXrayEyes2255 in reply to Coffeeshop]

Please do blood test and check vitamin and minerals level. Also try eating oily fish or walnuts or blueberries as this has omega 3 which helps brain. But could it be worries or stress or trauma or burnout?

[Coffeeshop in reply to LazyXrayEyes2255]

It could be any of those. I'm on lithium so I get regular blood tests and I do take vitamin D. The question is what do I do about it.

[LazyXrayEyes2255 in reply to Coffeeshop]

Either you take vitamin and minerals and all work with each other

Or

You increase fruits and vegetables in diet

They recommend five servings at the very least

[LazyXrayEyes2255]

have you hurt your head even. Bump or bruise small. But that would have been in mri and nothing. Dehydration or illness maybe

[Downinil]

I’m telling you ya, some psychotropics cause this.

[Coffeeshop in reply to Downinil]

That's why I eliminated one med and lowered two. I have been going through this for years. It's not like I just started something and can pinpoint right away what the problem is. What do I do?

[Downinil]

If I had the answer to that question of “ what do I do” I would be relieved. It is a battle and we need to think of the risks, benefits, alternatives to psychotropics. That’s all I can say. I’ve been treated for depression most of the last 24 years. This is a lifelong struggle. I’m here.