It was like the Grinch

I've just mistakenly erased a block of writing I thought would help someone (dammit!). So, I'll try again. The post included some of my most painful memories and showed some examples of people whom I'd learned from through the years. I mentioned the works of Wayne Dyre and Louise Hay, who are no longer with us but who are two people who I have adored in my life. I imagined Wayne to be the father I never had. Mind you I knew my father from a distance. He was the first man I ever loved, and the first to break my heart. For me, the longing for love from my father was one of the driving forces of my depression. I realized it one day in a dream. I've had these recurring dreams that a man I deeply loved betrays and turns away from me, and I would wake up so sad that it would sometimes take days to pass. I had no idea where the connection to my father was until I watch a lady by the name of Marisa Peer. She's famous, and part of the speakers of Master Classes given by a group called MindValley. In a video, she hypnotized the audience and the video viewers and brought everyone back to the first significant memory they'd had. In mine I was four years old, sitting on top of the toilet, watching my father shave. That was the first time I'd felt true love. It made me cry for many reasons, but mostly because it was the last time I remember love. I mean I loved my mother, and brother and family, but this deep innocent love that filled my heart like the Grinch at Christmas was the love I felt in my dreams (ever-elusive because my father never gave me that love back). That was really really deep. Anyway, my point is that if you try, you can reach the moment your troubled minds started. BUT, you have to have the courage to face and admit it to yourself. You have to have the courage as if you were saving someone else. Then you can start to heal. Never give up! With love always AU

[hypercat54]

If you are doing a long post its best to save it regularly to avoid this. Also unless you want all your posts and the replies to go viral you need to lock it to this site. To edit click on the more button x

[Hidden in reply to hypercat54]

Hi Hyper

Thank you for that important tidbit of information. I don't know how I feel about my posts going viral. What do you think?

[hypercat54 in reply to Hidden]

Well I would hate my doings to go anywhere on the net wouldn't you? It also means all the replies do to and who wants to answer unlocked posts? I always lock mine and so do most of us x

[Hidden in reply to hypercat54]

Hmm ok. I actually don't care about who knows what. I'm an open book, to a fault. However, I would hate for someone not to respond to me because I am potentially not respecting boundaries. Thank you Hype Umm How do I lock to the site? Forgive my ignorance.