Not worthy

I feel like I will never be loved (truly loved) by a man....am I worthy of being or having true love in my life?

[Hidden]

Yes you are.

[Angelfox2002]

Yes of course you are, and you will it just takes time, I’m 40 and have never truly been loved by a man, I believe they’re not the best thing to be loved by in the 1st place because they’ll easily tear it to shreds. Love yourself and let these pimps and players move on! You deserve it and you are loved!

[Angelfox2002]

I just read your bio and I think maybe you can help me with ARFID. Is that an actual diagnosis because I’m not anorexic or bulimic but I just don’t want to eat or feel like chewing and swallowing is so much when I’m this sad that I’ll gag or vomit. I just don’t want food, it’s been a very slow progression of me not eating what I cook for dinner, to not cooking dinner, to not eating what I ordered for take out because I really only want food because my kids need to eat, I have no appetite... I’m down to 100 lbs and I average 125 and up. I hate looking in the mirror because no one understands a struggle with not being able to gain/maintain your weight. Is ARFID similar to my description or am I just sick and tired of being me?

[Angelfox2002]

PS If that’s you in the picture you are beautiful and shouldn’t be self conscious... I know that’s a loaded statement and we are all self conscious to some degree but I wish you the strength to put that big smile on and show the world you’re proud to be you!

[fauxartist]

there is only yourself holding you back. learn to love yourself before looking for love from another.

[Hidden in reply to fauxartist]

i agree. You can’t give what you don’t have.

[Angelfox2002 in reply to fauxartist]

So eloquently said... I think you’re a special type of artist... I’m always a bit intrigued by your name when I see your comments, my curios mind wonders if there is a meaning behind “faux artist”? You don’t seem to have any faux about you!

[fauxartist in reply to Angelfox2002]

I was a faux finisher...meaning I did Marbleizing as part of the speciality finishes I did when I was a painting contractor. I made a substrate like plaster board or wood look like marble or semi-precious stone like rose quartz, marble, etc.

[Hidden]

Why determine your self worth on weather a man loves you or not? Their is so much more to life.

[Angelfox2002 in reply to Hidden]

I think some of us just weren’t taught self worth... a lot of people grow up humble believing their biggest contribution and value is measured by what they can offer to others... what is needed of them by others. Whether it’s the expectations of teachers, parents, classmates, friends or family were taught to put others 1st, some aren’t taught the fine line they’re walking. Once we’re in school and the workplace, raising families etc. to love ourselves without some kind of confirmation from a boss, the opposite sex or any partner in general seems impossible for many people. I think it’s more common than not. A lot of people seem to frown upon independent women who don’t need a man to make them whole, it’s such a double edged sword of the mind. I’ve been in both mindsets at different ages and if you weren’t taught self worth it’s very hard to self teach! Just my opinion.