My feelings...

I don't know what to think anymore. My panic attacks has gotten worse these past few months then I had in years since I was 12. Yes I have severe social anxiety and general anxiety among other things. But recently dread,hopelessness,depression and ofcourse anxiety has been just too much. Between me and brother trying to buy a house is really damn stressful but at the same time my brother hasn't gotten over his heartbreak from his ex gf. He is always depressed and easily annoyed then gets pissed. My mom also trying to buy a place to move in with her boyfriend has also been stressful. She is struggling financially more then ever now. My house now just feels like dread is in the air. Before all this we were happy,yes we still had issues and struggles but with God's good grace we always made it through. I probably was the only one really suffering mentally obviously. But my family helped me through it alot. But now I'm hopeless and my family feels they are too. I keep praying for something great to happen in our lives but the waiting is destroying us. I know I always keep in mind people around the world is going through a hell of alot worse and I pray for them. But me and my family feel very hopeless. So I don't know what to think anymore. I kinda feel like I'm dead inside these days. Is this how it's going to be from now on? I feel I may lose myself....

[lillyofthevalley37]

Hold on, hopefully things will improve

[Hidden in reply to lillyofthevalley37]

Thank you. I'm trying hard so hard to hang on. I'm afraid of what happens next in my future. But thank you so much for reaching out!

[Phoenix2012]

Hello FaithWarrior, I have struggled with depression and anxiety for most of my life but didn't get help until 7 years ago when things spiraled out of control. I guess I didn't realize what it was until then. My parents were strict Christians and didn't believe in Psychology or acknowledge any sort of mental illness. My mom still believes depression is caused by the devil and refuses any type of treatment. As I have gone through different types of treatment, I've come to realize that because we are all different, not all treatment will be right fit for everyone. I've also seen this my daughter's treatment as well. She also has depression and anxiety. What I have noticed is that your overall health affects your mental health and vice versa. That's why things like exercise, meditation, eating healthy meals, staying hydrated, getting enough sleep are needed to maintain mental health. One thing I have recently struggled with is stress relief. Until recently, I didn't talk to my kids about stress, how I dealt with it, how it affects me and the ripple affects on them but a few things happened that changed that. Once it did, I started talking to my family about how I was feeling and in turn they would tell me how they were feeling. We had many discussions about our life experiences and helped each other, sometimes providing advice, other times just listening. My daughter's therapist has been helping her overcome her social anxiety by joining an after school club that intrested her. She's made new friends with similar interests and is developing coping skills to alleviate her anxiety. With my mom, she deals with her depression by taking her dog for walks, being a prayer warrior and making meals for friends. I'm learning to manage my stress by meditating, reading, trying new recipes, encouraging others and doing at least one thing for me every day. I hope that you find something that helps you. You're not alone.

[Hidden in reply to Phoenix2012]

Thank you for trying to help me out. I really do appreciate it. I'm trying to hold on to hope. Whatever is left of it. And I'll try to do things to exercise my mind but from me being 12 yrs old to now me being 28,nothing has worked but I'll still hold onto hope. But thank you just people taking the time to reach honestly helps!

[Believeinyourself123]

Try to hang in there. I know it's rough to see it. A friend told me to lead by faith not by sight. Stay strong. I alwsys remind myself although my situation is not the best someone out there has it worse. Take care 💖

[Hidden in reply to Believeinyourself123]

I'm holding onto God with a strong grip more then ever. But the waiting for that miracle, I feel my family and I at this point don't have much hope left...I know people go through worst things in this world it's always in the back of my head. I always pray for them alot whoever and whatever they are struggling with. So I don't have the right to complain,not that I want to complain. And I'm not saying my problems are worse then a scared kid in a hospital room with cancer,who I always pray for anyone suffering any kind of disease,illness or life challenges. But why can I stop my tears that drip down my face....I'm sorry I'm not trying to sound depressing on purpose. It just comes out of me, when I type about it or talk about it...I'm sorry. But thank you for reaching out. It gives me comfort.

[Believeinyourself123 in reply to Hidden]

Please don't appologize for feeling sad or any feelings you have. You are entitled and your feelinhs ate valid. Its our thoughts that can be distorted. Still dont appologize. What i gather from your comment is how kimd you are to others and that is a true gift. Being in pain bit still hsving the ability to care for others is impressive. I hope this helps you. Take care 💖💖💖

[Hidden in reply to Believeinyourself123]

Thank you, I appreciate the kind and gentle words. You and everyone here has been a blessing honestly. Thank you! God Bless!

[Believeinyourself123 in reply to Hidden]

You're welcome. Are you feeling better?

[Hidden in reply to Believeinyourself123]

Yeah I'm feeling somewhat better. But I'll see how that lasts through the day. But I'll try to stay hopeful. I'm really trying.

[Believeinyourself123 in reply to Hidden]

Good for you. Stay strong. 💖💖💖

[Hidden]

I know. I'm sorry. God bless you all.

[sudoremi]

Hang in there man.

[Hidden in reply to sudoremi]

Thanks I'm trying. I appreciate the support.