Hi everyone, I am new on this site. I have been diagnosed with anxiety/depression for about 10 years now and everyday its a struggle. In October 2018, I had a second mental breakdown in my life (my first one was 17 years old) and I would say this one was much worse as I was having thoughts of suicide and hopelessness. I had to go for treatment and get my medication adjusted. The doctor at the hospital diagnosed me with bipolar/mood disorder. I think the reason why its so difficult is not only do I have many issues but my anxiety is by far the worst because I stress out and worry over things that could happen but never do to the point where I feel sick with sorry. Then my depression makes me feel like shit for worrying or worrying what people think about me. I am incredibly fortunate to have an amazing boyfriend of 3.5 years who has loved me in spite of everything that has happened (he also has bipolar disorder and is manic depressive) and loves me for my illness as he struggles himself. I am lucky to have a wonderful therapist, great family and friends. So why do I feel so hopeless? When I was in treatment a year ago, I was in group therapy and that really seemed to help me in a different way that medicine/therapy couldn't. I think as unfortunate it is that we all have this disease, we all have each others support and I guess it helped some people sharing their stories with me that were my age. It's stupid but after all this time, my family and friends tell me I can always talk to them about anything and though I've gotten better with being honest about my true feelings and not hiding them, I still feel like I am burdening them with my problems (aside from my boyfriend) or they just don't understand totally but they really do try their best. Like I said most of it is my fault for not reaching out or rather my illness holding me back. I've tried looking up in group therapy sessions by me but they are either too far or they do not work with my busy schedule. Lately though with this busy schedule, I am having a hard time focusing on tasks and feeling motivated. I guess I'm just feeling stressed out and my condition isn't helping this. Thanks everyone for listening.
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Fish oil.capsules are good for BPD so are flaxseed oil capsules they help make serotonin in.your brain which counters the dopamine which people with BPD usually have too much of
You sound young you.will.learn.as you go.along what suits you.and what doesn't,
I agree! I been taking fish oil pills and it has helped me avoid thinking the worst possible case scenerios and calm down too.
Stephen Fry who has BPD did a brilliant 2part programme about BPD for channel 4 many years ago you can see it on YouTube I really recommend it
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