Hi. I am new to this site. I suffer from Anxiety/Panic Attack Disorder, Bipolar Disorder, Border-line Personality Disorder, PTSD, OCD, Eating Disorder and Depression. I have learned to play my role for people. I put on my "happy" face for my 10 year old son. He is the song in my heart. God truly blessed me with that little 3 pound gift! God also blessed me with my mother. No words can describe the "WONDERFUL" that she was. My world crashed in all around me the day she passed. March 4, 2009 at 4:03 pm. My mother was my world, my best friend, my angel, my first love and the light that would shine and rescue me from the darkness that kept me prisoner in my mind. When I was lost in that "darkness", nobody cared to look for me! Nobody helped me fight those demons. My mother was the ONLY ONE!! Fearless, strong, brave, courageous, beautiful, loving, kind....my mommy! She was my "Happy Place", she was my "Home"! She is my depression. She is my grief. She is my sadness, tears and broken heart. She is gone from me. I am sorry that this is quite long. I will talk about my anxiety next time. May God bless all of you tonight, tomorrow, and always. XO
BluuAngel