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I am in the middle of dying inside

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I sent this out today to the person that crushed me. She said, to stop feeling sorry for myself after emotionally abusing me.

You are right. I do. Feel sorry for myself.

I feel sorry that I fell in love with a person that is so willing to hurt me. And then blame me.

I feel sorry for myself that I wanted be loved sinbad that I took on every single issue that was thrown at me.

I feel sorry for myself that someone who said that they loved me. Could hurt me so deeply and not take responsibility and stop.

I feel sorry for myself that my love gave way to

-fear.

-uncertainty.

I feel sorry for myself that I thought I could help a woman that I love heal, so that I can grow old with someone who called me their friend.

I thought I was in love with my friend and could spend my life like that. I was wrong, and so I fell sorry for myself.

I feel so sorry for myself that this life has become painful because I thought I was right. Thought I was good. And I'm not. Again.

My love made me sorry for myself.

So, pardon me for trying to use my broken pieces to fix yours.

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Beautiful, keep writing and healing.

Now say thank you to her...stand tall again soon..

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cschwemin

There is nothing wrong with feeling your feelings! It appears to me you are really good at writing. Journaling, drawing, talking to a supportive friend or good therapist, taking a walk and really observing what is around you.... all great ways to process and work through your feelings. In order to move on, we must express what we feel. Good for you for doing that! And continuing to do so in healthy ways so you can go forward!

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brokenspirit100

There is nothing worng with loving someone ,its when you love the wrong one. Be careful because there's feeling sorry for yourself and then there's trying to make someone feel sorry for you.

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destressme

People do not have any idea what it is is like to go thru this my family keeps saying just do it yes if it was that easy don't you think I would do it?

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