I miss joy, I miss happiness. I wish I could stop the anxiety and panic. Days on end and still no relief. I write daily of all the positives in my life and also to re read when I need a pick me up. It's hard enough that I rip myself to shreds but to have the people who are supposed to love you treat me like I am stupid or nothing... Trapped is an understatement and if you are a praying person please say some for me today. What I wouldn't do to get back to the strong woman I had been most of my life. I was always the friend that everyone came to when they needed advice or just a hug and kind words to stave off the big bad world. I don't have them anymore. I am just to depressing to be around. I honestly am a happy person but the stress keeps piling and I can't find anything positive to say about myself anymore. Sorry to repeat but if you are a person that prays please send some up for me today. Desperately needing them!!