Happy pills

[Bitterswit]

CITALOPRAM. I am soo happy when I take them as soon as I stop or as soon as they come off my system I become this SAD ANGRY UNHAPPY PERSON, I hate life I hate being around people but soon as I am alone...... I become depressed n I feel alone... I feel like people don't like me I feel like they can see how lonely and pathetic My life is...... I hate this feeling. Do I have to take this pills soo I can be happy??? I am gonna live all my life like THIS FOREVER. I can't control all this feelings I can't EXPLAIN ANY OF THEM . I wish they would go away..... I WISH I COULD BE HAPPY

[ashesb03]

You might have to take the medicine for a long time or for life, and that's ok. I've come to terms that i will probably be on meds for the rest of my life. I'm ok with it as long as i have this anxiety under control. You will get through this. Pray to God. Watch something funny on tv, or go for a walk. I understand how you feel though, its so frustrating. But in time it will get better. I'm sure there are people who love you its just so hard to see right now. I'll send you some prayers and hugs. I'm also here to talk if you need to.

[Bitterswit in reply to ashesb03]

Thank you for your kind words..... Its very comforting to know that someone out there understands

[ashesb03 in reply to Bitterswit]

You are very welcome! I hope you are feeling good today!!

[Bitterswit in reply to ashesb03]

Yes I am doing much better.... I started taking my pills again. I try to keep busy soo I don't over think

[hypercat54]

Hi I notice you posted a day ago but didn't acknowledge your replies? Did you read them and are you going to try any of them? They might help after all. x

[Bitterswit in reply to hypercat54]

Yes I read them and I will try them...... Sorry for not replying..... I find it hard to connect with people sometimes.

[hypercat54 in reply to Bitterswit]

That's fine. Even if you just come in and say thank you or say you have seen the replies. You haven't got to go into any details. We all suffer from mental issues here and know how hard it is. But I know I feel bad when I reply to someone and I don't even know if they have bothered reading it. I automatically think my reply is wrong or has upset someone otherwise. x

[Bitterswit in reply to hypercat54]

I understand 😊😊😊

[hypercat54 in reply to Bitterswit]

Well done xx

[jesca18]

You’re fortunate to have found a medication that works so well for you. I would not be too concerned with whether or not you will have to be on them for life. I have tried many medications and none of them make me happy; they just help me not be so sad. Meds seem to make me feel somewhere in between.

[Bitterswit in reply to jesca18]

I just don't want to depend on them too much

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Hi Bitterswit - it takes several weeks to come off the drug and you can get withdrawal symptoms of anxiety and mood difference if coming off them without reducing the dose over a period o weeks. There are interactions with foods which are tyrosine based such as meat cheese and fish in some people,e which you don't seem to have experienced with the drug. May be you should have cognitive behaviour therapy, or there are memories from your past that are affecting you. This feeling of sadness may also have links with low vitamin levels such as D and iron and B12 . I guess you want to find out if it is possible to live without the drugs. The good thing is that the drugs do help you feel happy and able to feel you can chat with people. May be you could ask for psychology help with counselling and cognitive behavioural therapy or post traumatic stress disorder. Only you can remember what might have affected you but many people lead happy and normal lives with drug support. Hope you can ask your medical team for further therapy even when taking the drug as something seems to be holding you back. Other tests for vitamin and mineral deficiencies and iron might help you too to cross them off the list.

[Jeffery]

Dear Bitterswit, I take 30 mg of Citalopram a day and have for years. Like you ,going off of them does not work. So I stay on them and it keeps me from sinking lower. I also learned transendental meditation which, when practiced for 30 min twice a day, does wonders for my mood. I have a lot of health concerns with an auto immune disease and if I have to keep taking this med to help me I will.