Obsessed with being a good girl

[Magicdreamer]

I've been in good girl mode today but to an extreme. It's like walking on egg shells around myself... Making sure that I'm being polite to everyone knowing it's false and making sure I'm perfectly getting my goals met but in OCD mode and perfectionist mode and I can completely feel that I'm being inauthentic! Who am I being good for? It's like, if I can do everything perfectly in the day with my goals but not only my goals, being perfect when doing yoga which is part of a health goal, then I feel like I'm achieving something but I'm actually not! I'm lying to myself. It's all good and well having goals to achieve but frankly, being in perfect good girl mode all day is so tiring not to mention BORING! It's actually sucking my energy! I need to do something fun, spontaneous and naughty cos that's my Spirit. I need to find that balance as fun is an important part of balance.... I feel better now. 🤣

[TheMeg]

I understand! So often we want to fit into an idea that isn't even us. I've found myself not buying certain clothing because I knew other people would see me in it and think it wasn't a "me" thing to do. As if someone other than me knows that more than I do. Start by doing small spontaneous things and then hopefully you'll get into being the person that you want to be!

[Magicdreamer in reply to TheMeg]

Thank you.... I've just done some inner child work and it's related to fear of abandonment.... I'm working through it. Thank you for the tips. Xxx💚

[kalinevada in reply to Magicdreamer]

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[kalinevada]

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[Hidden]

I agree that we all need periods where we can let go of inhibitions completely as long as its not harmful to yourself or others. Being constantly aware of your behavior and judging your ever move sure is exhausting. Nobody's perfect and feel that its natural to want to rebel against something.

[Magicdreamer in reply to Hidden]

That was beautiful written. Thank you for the really awesome feedback. 💚

[Nom-D-Ploom]

I co-wrote a song years ago called Sometimes being Right.

The chorus went:

Sometimes being right

Is worse than being wrong

Someone broke the rules

That I've followed all along.

I always walked the narrow road

But I never got ahead.

Sometimes being good

Hurts worse than being bad.

[NeuronerdDoaty in reply to Nom-D-Ploom]

Nice!

[Magicdreamer in reply to Nom-D-Ploom]

Wow! That's beautiful! Thank you for sharing. Xxx