The burden of being a burden

I have always been pretty emotional, I cry when I'm sad, I cry when I'm angry and I cry when I'm stressed or frustrated.

But recently it's so much worse. I'd cry out of the blue, and the worst of it are the times when I laugh genuinely but it eventually turns into crying by the end of it, like sadness just overwhelms every other emotion I have.

I live with two of the closest people in my life, but I've stopped talking to them about how I feel at times because they've commented at how I "get sad for no reason" , "I'm overdramatic" and "I'm really good at ruining happy days"

I know they say it jokingly most of the time, but that's possibly how they really feel and I guess they don't realize how bad it actually is for me at this point. I can't count how often I lock myself in the bathroom to cry. It hurts not being able to talk to the people I love so much, but I can't bare to hear another person telling me that all it takes to be happy is that I just need to worry less, stop overthinking and stop being so dramatic all the time.

Sorry for such a long message but this is the only place where I can get all the feelings out without people telling me to stop crying for nothing.

[TangledUpIn]

Keep posting on here so we can give you healthy positive affirmations.

[Hidden in reply to TangledUpIn]

Thank you so much

[TangledUpIn in reply to Hidden]

Of course PudgyOrc! You sound like a kind person😊

[Hidden in reply to TangledUpIn]

So do you! 😊

[Sharon197123]

I understand how u feel . I live with my teenagers and I’ve come to realise family are the best at having the least understanding and compassion. I hope u feel better soon xx

[Hidden in reply to Sharon197123]

I completely agree, the people you love most could really cause you the most pain and they don't even realize it. Thank you so much for responding, I'm glad to finally be able to open up to people who understand.

[Sharon197123 in reply to Hidden]

I’m a good listener I work in mental health but am currently off sick due to severe pain x

[Hidden in reply to Sharon197123]

I'm so sorry about your condition, I hope you'll recover and get back to do doing what you love! You're in my thoughts x

[TangledUpIn in reply to Sharon197123]

That is so true about family - well at least some families🙁