Almost Had It

[lolavee1]

So i havent been on here in a good while, why? I met someone, someone amazing this someone in just a matter of a few weeks made all my problems go away. I no longer felt sad for no reason all my suicidal thoughts went away the feeling of not belonging or feeling wanted went away it was just me and him. But then i found out he was all a fake. Everything he told me was a lie he was still living nd sleeping wit his "ex" i ignored all the signs at the beginning but then he started letting his lies slip through the cracks and i noticed it all. Since we stopped talking ive built up so much hate and it feels like my heart just went cold i dnt feel like myself but i also dont feel like i used to i feel like a different version of me like i have no love left in my heart i have nothing to really care about i feel lost.

[Hidden]

I am sorry that it ended up being fake. "Falling in love" produces loads of good hormones making us almost feel euphoric. If you aren't using medication, I think this is an indication that it would help you.

[terriltwin2]

I am sorry you had to go through this. However, just know that you are worthy of love, you are valuable. Don't let some one define who you are. You are beautiful and you deserve to be loved and happy. Happiness is such an external thing and it comes in and out of our lives. People let us down and hurt us and it feels horrible. However, be of courage and be strong and have confidence in yourself, say to yourself, " I am better than a relationship that is not real", I am worthy to be loved. I am going to leave you with a link, it's a great resource to have, so you know that you are never alone. bit.ly/2RNqOEj