New and Anxious.

[MaybeSomeday]

I've just made this account and honestly I don't even know what I'm doing or why I'm doing it. Maybe having someone to relate to will help. Maybe just knowing someone out there is reading my thoughts without judgement will help. I feel that I should learn where boundaries are if there are any here. I guess I can start with what's on my mind this morning.

I didn't sleep last night at all. It's hard to pinpoint the reason anymore. I just feel so down today. My house is a mess, I haven't cleaned my kitchen in weeks. My toddler is constantly making messes that I have to clean up behind him and it never ends. Both of my dogs constantly pee all over the house and on my bed. My relationship with my husband is horrible. I don't open up to him enough and he's always angry about something. Something that I've done or something that I haven't done. My past traumas are like a brick wall between us and I never want him near me. I feel suffocated as soon as he walks into the room. I just feel so trapped here. I want to leave. I want nothing more than to just walk away and lose myself. I'm so lost and I just don't know what to do...

[Destiny8277]

Just having someone to listen to you. Helps!! It has helped me on here. A word of encouragement. I struggle daily just to get up and try to keep a job. Just know your not alone.

[MaybeSomeday in reply to Destiny8277]

Thank you for your kind words. A lot of the time I just feel so crazy and so alone. But it's nice to have people to relate to for a change.

[mel9195]

You have come to the right place ! This group is great, there are so many members who will be able to relate to you in some way.

Sounds like You are having similar problems to me!

[UFC80]

Welcome 😁. We will take care of you Greatly here Friend! 😁 Please intrust within our support community. We've seen and heard it all! Have you seen a Therapist/Psychiatrist?

[MaybeSomeday in reply to UFC80]

I've seen more therapists than I can even count. I've been to rehab for drug addiction and tried countless medications. Most of the time I just feel like there is no help for me.

[UFC80 in reply to MaybeSomeday]

I'm very sorry to hear about that! Please know that It's important to always keep in contact with doctors and continue to have some sort of support. Including here in the Community! 🤗 Here,we all have some sort of struggle, whether it's Mental illness, or Drug Rehabilitation or both, you can count on the people because we are in the same boat to a degree! 😉 If your feeling down post what's bothering you and in doing so, you may feel relief through the Community Connection ok? 🤗😁✌

[Downandout123]

I'm just reading this now, though I see it was posted a month ago. I can relate to some of it. The mess-the dogs, ( I have 3), but I live alone so I don't have the husband problem. ( Not anymore anyway, after my divorce in 2006). Just wondering if anything has gotten better since then. If so, please share, because I could use some words of wisdom also. 😑