Anxious

[Dabela]

I'm feeling really anxious today. There's this pit in my stomach and it just won't go away. And I'm frustrated because I don't know why. The ups and downs of depression are so infuriating and exhausting. Yesterday wasn't such a bad day then today has felt just awful for no reason. I have tried to "breathe" and I meditated but that didn't do much. I don't feel like doing anything but I am still trying to make myself. I took a walk and I worked out hoping that would help and it didn't. Listening to music or watching a movie or playing a game just doesn't feel enjoyable these days. It's like eating something without the taste. I just want it to stop and I want to understand it so I can make it stop. It's maddening feeling like you don't have control of your own mind. I try to make things better. I've been accused of wallowing in the past and that's just not true. I try, but I just can't seem to keep my grasp. Sometimes I just feel so defeated.

[ReardenSt33l]

I have felt exactly how you’re feeling the past few days. It’s like I really want to do something but nothing sounds interesting and everything has a downside to it. I used to love going hiking but recently I haven’t been bc it doesn’t interest me.

The best advice I heard was to just continue to live your normal life (weird, I know). Staying in a routine helps us to feel grounded. Wake up and make your bed, fix breakfast, watch a tv show you enjoy, go for a short walk, take a shower, then continue. Set a routine before bed: wash your face, drink a glass of water, read a book for 30 minutes, do some deep breathing, then lights out.

This may not be your “cure all” but it has helped me. It comforts me.

Know that you aren’t alone. There are many people out in your community that are feeling similar but may have not reached out to anyone for help. Consider joining an in-person anxiety support group. Maybe join a fitness class if you’re feeling up to it.

I hope these tips help - and know that everyone in this community is here to help you

[Dabela in reply to ReardenSt33l]

Thank you, I am trying my best to make myself keep up with the routine because I know that even though it may not feel like it, it does help. I've been looking for support groups but there don't seem to be any around my area. I want to go to one because I had hoped it would help me not feel so lonely. This online community has been great and I am so thankful I found it but because it is online it's hard to make those connections with people.

[ReardenSt33l in reply to Dabela]

Yes I feel the same. This community has helped a lot, but it’s not like meeting someone in person and actually have real one-on-one conversation.

Good luck in your journey and remember to breath and drink lots of water

[Dabela in reply to ReardenSt33l]

Thanks

[Marshall64]

It would be great if you could find a support group. I just got back from one for bipolar and depression. I can have my guard down being around others that are going through similar circumstances. I have isolated myself so this is a good outlet. It has uplifted me and I find myself laughing which I haven't felt like doing much. Depression robs us of so much.

[Dabela in reply to Marshall64]

Yea it would be great and I really wish I could find that. I am going to go see a therapist in a couple weeks and I'm going to ask her if she knows of anywhere local that maybe I'm missing. I have isolated myself in the past but I haven't been doing that now but it's not seeming to matter because I'm still alone. Depression definitely robs us.

[corrine245]

I am here for you❤️ i suffer bad anxiety and depression and it feels like you just cant do or enjoy simple or normal tasks somedays I just want to lay in bed and it seems I never can take control of my mind I am working on creating more of a routine to lessen the episodes

[Dabela in reply to corrine245]

Thank you <3 It's so hard to deal with. It's a constant battle to just try and keep going. I'm sorry you know what this feels like but I am also glad I'm not alone. If you ever want someone to talk to who can relate I'd love to talk

[Carebear1]

I feel the same way. I get you. Why cant i just be me agian. Why does this have to happen. I always aske myself these questions. But you know we are strong we will get over this. Lets hold our head up high and so no to depression. I am here for you.

[Dabela in reply to Carebear1]

Thank you, I really appreciate it. I wish it could be that easy and I just say no to depression. I’ve been saying I will get over this practically my whole life and it just doesn’t go away. It will lie dormant but then “life” happens and it re-triggers traumas in me and it’s rinse and repeat. I feel broken.