Feeling fine

[Kevin160]

Ever since perhaps april, i didnt have any constant anxiety , i feel closer to normal, i feel calm and barely anxious most of the time , i felt very calm this past month , i did get a couple anxiety attacks when i had exams in early may , but it would last for a day or two then i get back to normal , started to realize i cant panic except if there is a reason, funny how this realization made me calm because i would panic constantly for no reason , and i just looked at myself thinking, all what i thought is irrational, and i just caused myself unnecessary panic over things im not in control of, ofcourse though this is not alone what helped me calm , i did find coping methods like meditation and breathing techniques, i found ways to lower my blood pressure and pulse , so even when i feel anxious im not worrying about my health as much which was the main cause of my fears , i feel stronger mentally which helps me keep going, i learned about claire weekes acceptance method and it truly helped knowing anxiety and fear wont kill me, and i can face it and accept it until it becomes part of me , it became normal for me to worry and not trying to fight it , knowing its a normal human reaction to things that can be scary to anyone , maybe im oversensitive at the time but im allowed to be because i have a mental condition , i stopped blaming myself and telling myself im worthless and stupid for feeling weak and scared , im not afraid of things i used to , i feel more normal than ever , i like to consider the past few months of panic attacks and fear that i can even imagine again , i survived that , all the sleepless night, the crazy thoughts , the thoughhts of me dying of panic and high bp and pulse, not having support, being alone, not knowing if i will ever escape it , knowing that every obstaclee i faced ended getting better eventualky also makes me feel ktivates , that regardless whatever i face it will suck but it always gets better

Setbacks are inevitable , and i know i always face anxiety at times , its nit gonna stop magically , but im improving mentally and physically , my magical thinking and superstitions are getting beter , my fears are not as severe, im sleeping and eating better , im less scared of things i used to fear ..and im not scared of the world as much , and not as scared of the future , we shall see ,my only fear is my exam results coming up in a couple months , i will probabiy panic for nomreason knowing i did ok , but i guess we will wait and see

[Agora1]

Oh Kevin thanks for your positive post. You've now got a good grasp on life, don't

let go of that positive approach. There is always going to be ups and downs in our

lives but the thing is not waiting in anticipation with the "what ifs" every day. Your

last few words of your post let's me know that you are on the right path.

"I guess we will wait and see". Applause, applause, why worry about something

that may not happen. Have a great day Kevin, you deserve it. xx

[Kat63]

I’m so glad you’re having a break from the anxiety. Isn’t it great when that happens?

[Kevin160 in reply to Kat63]

Yes its somrefreshing not being scared all the time and just thinking everything is out to get you or everything is going to go horribly wrong , its also amazing to finally feel confident and normal like everyone around you , for the past month its been much better and even though at times i did get a few anxiety attacks, there was a reawon such as exams , so it was basically normal stress , and would always go away after the exam finishes , so in a day or two i would feel great again , unlike before where panic would be consant for weeks

[Michdau1]

Well done and thanks for your hopeful and inspiring post. It sounds like you've stopped 'worrying about worrying' and it has changed your life. I think it's awesome that this has happened for you and that your sharing and passing it on to others. You're a 🌟

[Kevin160 in reply to Michdau1]

Yes i wanted to share this to show people that it does get better,i reached a poijt where i just thiught this is my life, just panic attacks, and i will end up dying of a heart attack, but i realized our bodies are very strong, and its never consant, it never stays and doesnt go away, but it takes time ..i still get anxious and panicky sometimes , especially when i have a stressful event, but its mild, it doesnt last long, and i have grwn to accept it because its not as scary, its annoying sometimes , but its managable