Hey everyone , these past two days have been much better mentally, i started feeling much calmer, i tried my best for once to see the good side of anxiety and that its nit life threatening, its funny how before i would see the same words and the same articles but still wouldnt see the world (harmless) ,, the only reason i panic was because i always thought anxiety will kill me , i will have a heart attack or stroke out, the thoughts still bother me , but for once i dont feel very worried when i think of it, because i dont mind being anxious or feeling panic anymore...,everyone i know so far has told me to accept it amd live with it because your fears wont cause u to die, panic disorder and long term anxiety wont cause any damage, they are just feeling and muscle spasms, and just physical symptoms that mimic actual conditions, these 2 days i felt much better , i actually went through the day with very minimal panic and anxiety, im not getting any headaches or physical symptoms and i dont even care about anxiety because i just keep saying it wont kill me , so i dont have to worry, even if i did worry nothing will happen, so my mind is sort of feeling safe i guess, im barely getting these heat palpitations and i feel so happy that i might of started feeling better, any break of anxiety is good, and it wasnt the anxiety bothering me , it was the windering , the what ifs , and now since i dont let them bother ...bring on the anxiety since it wont kill me or make things worse ,thats cool....i always felt the fear soecifically at night before i sleep, i keep worrying what if im sleeping and something happens and im alone, but everyday i wake up and i feel great, hopefully it will stay this way but all the people who said i should accept it and guaranteed its harmless, and seeing online articles and asking doctors made me feel soo good, i cant believe i didnt see it before, or i chose not to believe it, i put my trust with all the people who offered to help and im glad i did ...i just didnt think that i will feel like that again ...like im strong enough to face the day, like i wont panic or die..
No one knows what the future holds but i really dont feel scared anymore, like even when something happens i did my best and i hope it works ...now everyhing is being organized, my sleep schedule, studying, going out, eating, physical symptoms are gone, i would say this is a first honestly , because i always felt calmer but never that anxiety doesnt scare me or i keep saying what if ...
, i always was litteraly afraid from getting stressed because i thought if i panic or lose control i would go crazy and my heart will stop, and i play there irrational and unrealistic scneraios in my head , these few days i get haunted by these thoughts a bit but its great how i dont need to try much or do much to feel better, i feel that im realizing more and more that since i went through 2 months of constant panic , it would have been harmlful, but its not ...my only problem now is the past 2months, whenever i feel something that reminds me how this whole thing started i panic and it triggers a bit of stress
