Depression and lack of support system

[bluecoco]

I'm struggling with Major Depressive Disorder. It is really hard but I don't have support system. Only some friends here and there I can only contact by text but I can't talk about my depression or feelings or intangible things. I'm seeing a therapist. But that's not enough. I feel that I'm getting through it alone. I feel mentally alone. My ex who usually be there (ex also a bestfriend) at any high and low can't be there anymore. I don't have energy to get through it alone. This feels too big to face alone. Can I fight it alone?

[brokenlight]

I have the same diagnosis (plus a few more) & often feel completely alone.

It’s so difficult to try navigate through this journey without a support system. Unfortunately I’ve gone through that too & still am.

I don’t think many understand this level of depression.

I’m glad you have a therapist, but I get what you mean. Often that is not enough.

I know it wasn’t for me.

Sometimes it feels good to be reminded that we aren’t truly alone & other times, it feels like bullshit.

For me, I think it’s a mix of both. Some sporadic times of help, but mostly it’s a solitary battle.

Best of luck to you & I’m sorry for your pain & suffering 💛

[bluecoco in reply to brokenlight]

Hi.. thank you for responding and understanding. I'm sorry that you are having that too. and yes I agree that I don't think many understand this, especially those who don't experience this. I feel constantly lonely that sometimes it is super painful that even my pores are in pain. Even if I talk to friends sometimes, I am still the person who have to battle my thoughts at night, crying at bad times, being scared of myself and being anxious, decide of what is the next step to do on this journey, etc etc. Ye it is hard. Thank you for your words. I hope you can be strong on this journey and me too.

[Arcticuno]

I hear you and I'm going through something similar. I have two people who love me no matter what and I'm so grateful but they can't begin to understand what deep depression is like or anxiety attacks. Its incredibly lonely. Its alienating, by nature, I feel. I feel like I desperately want more community but the task of going out there and trying to find it is too enormous.

[bluecoco in reply to Arcticuno]

Ahh..you still feel the same even when u have 2 people who love you unconditionally. I am sorry to hear that you feel that way, nice to know that someone else understands it though. I think it could be a good idea to find a meet-up support group, so if there is something like that around you, maybe you want to give it a shot. If you don't like it or if that hurts u, u can stop. It is really hard or almost impossible to find such thing in my place. I hope you have a better day now. You are not alone. Let's face it together!

[Esther228]

Hi there, you are already making great strides in getting through your difficulties. I commend you for getting the help you need, it may take a while, but you are heading in the right direction.

I know for me a great place to meet people and form some lifelong friendships was through Church. I attended some great Bible Studies that connected me with a lot of wonderful ladies, and as a single, I had attended the singles group and it was great fun. One thing that I had to understand was that the people who go to church are looking for help, too. They are not perfect, but they have a desire to learn about God and to love one another.

Please know that I am thinking of you…and you are not alone.

[Hidden]

Hi

Sorry for your struggles.

I feel same as you...

Xx

[bluecoco in reply to Hidden]

Hi olivia, we can chat sometimes if you want to..