I continue to try everything I can to get rid of anxiety. I have a brother with stage four cancer and he tells me to live a happy life since I'm "healthy." I feel so bad to see my brother fighting for his life while I find it hard to keep going with mine. I really do try not to give up but there are days I don't want to live anymore. I hate anxiety so much. I hate the feeling it just takes all my energy away. The days are so long I feel like its never going to end. I guess it's all in my head right? But how do I stop all the physical symptoms I get from anxiety and panic. I get very anxious in crowded places and I get anxious if I'm left alone. I drink so much tea to get through my day, I take deep breaths but I don't want to be feeling like I'm in survival mode. Nobody else in my family or relatives have gone through this. I don't know who to talk it out with. My mom seems to hate me for this, she compares me with everyone else that has their life together. I don't want to die but I don't want to live like this anymore. I believe in God I pray, I cry but I don't know why I can't control my emotions like everyone else around me. I am still struggling to eat I hope this goes away because I don't to get more sick. I have gone to my primary care provider and she prescribed anxiety medication. What really causes anxiety? I wonder if my body lacks something besides food for now. I know that is my fault for not eating well. I know we are all going to die one day but I don't understand why I feel like I'm going to die from a panic attack. I get chest pain and my heart rate increases. I feel light headed and nausea. Can anyone else relate? If so for how long have you been struggling with anxiety? With or without medication?