Depression sucks

[BlueMoon29]

I hate this feeling: unhappy, irritable, angry, unmotivated, lonely. I don't know what to do to get out of this besides go on medication which I absolutely hate. I don't even find happiness in the things I used to love. The only comfort I've been able to find is in junk food but that's only temporary then I feel bad afterwards. I feel so alone even though I'm the one pushing everyone away. I just don't have the energy to speak and if I'm not my usual funny self I feel I'm letting everyone down. I wish I could be who I was before and had made better choices. I don't even feel a purpose in living anymore. I can't have the life I wanted anymore anyways. It's too late, I'm ruined.

[BlueMoon29]

I do those things too. I think I'll listen to music first. I used to enjoy writing but stopped. Thank you for the suggestions!

[JW621 in reply to BlueMoon29]

Lots of sleeping

[Hidden]

It's not too late. Depression says, "It will always be this way... nothing will ever change." It's a lie, don't believe it! You still have a purpose, and your life is still meaningful, even if you don't like the person you are right now. Remember to be patient with yourself. Depression is a health issue, not a character flaw. YOU are a unique and valuable person and besides... nobody should feel they need to be energetic and funny all the time. That would be exhausting. Don't beat yourself up. ❤️

[BlueMoon29 in reply to Hidden]

I just feel too impatient for things to change, like I don't have the time to waste being like this. I've already wasted so much. The smart thing to do would be to change everything I'm unhappy with but it's easier said than done with depression. It's like 2 giant cinder blocks on each ankle, completely stuck. Thank you though, I do appreciate it greatly!

[Hidden in reply to BlueMoon29]

Anytime. That is a good analogy with cinder blocks. Oof I can relate to that. You are totally right, it's easier said than done. I am trying to accomplish some change in my life too, and hate the wasted time, and feel so ineffectual. Hang in there. We can both get through this. I have to hit the hay now, wishing you a restful night and I hope you feel better tomorrow!

[BlueMoon29 in reply to Hidden]

Goodnight and thank you for your kind words. Hoping for the best for you too!

[Hidden]

Thank you Depressi! Wish I could do something like that. I love helping people. It's just a dream at this point thought. Well good night, I have to get some sleep. Over and out.

[BlueMoon29]

Lol, yes. I love cats. They're my favorite.

[BlueMoon29]

I only have one because she's too spoiled to have any friends lol

[JW621]

Sometimes medication help. I hated it. But it’s all I have left to get out this crazy thought syndrome

[BlueMoon29 in reply to JW621]

Sometimes you need it and that's ok. I've tried a few but never did me any good. I have valium and that works for my anxiety but not the depression.

[JW621 in reply to BlueMoon29]

I don’t like Valium

[JW621]

First of, let’s take that word hate out of this conversation, then I’m not helping. Let’s try it again. On my meds it makes everything makes sense. But I wish I didn’t have to rely on them

[BlueMoon29 in reply to JW621]

I get it. Sometimes they're just needed. Have you tried other measures such as holistic medicine?

[JW621 in reply to BlueMoon29]

No I haven’t. What are they which ones I specific. If you know

[BlueMoon29 in reply to JW621]

Nothing I know of off hand. Any issue I deal with I first research natural remedies online. Right now I'm improving my physical exercise and diet. My next step is a to purchase a few vitamins and supplements. I always feel more stable when I'm kept up on that. For your condition just research alternative therapies/remedies. There will be many so you have to research extensively and of course you'll want to make sure they're safe for you to do or take. There's a lot of trial and error and waiting with natural approaches so don't get discouraged if one doesn't work quickly enough or at all. We're all different and have to find what works best for us.

[JW621 in reply to BlueMoon29]

How are things going

[BlueMoon29 in reply to JW621]

I pretty much slept all day. Don't know if I'm getting sick, it's the weather, the depression or a combo. How about you?

[JW621 in reply to BlueMoon29]

Prob combo

[JW621]

My adhd kicks in and I can’t focus is my main problem

[JW621]

So you’ll be here all

Night

[BlueMoon29 in reply to JW621]

Maybe. I'll try and sleep but who knows if I'll be able to now.

[Padrefanatic]

Its the worse. I'm sorry you're dealing with these thoughts. I'm praying life gets better for you. I have the same feelings and thoughts. Its tough, hang in there you got a friend in me. If you ever just want to talk I'm right here.

[BlueMoon29]

Thank you! I appreciated it!