There is hope

[Sarah1111111]

Just thought I would post to encourage you all to keep going. When I joined this community a few years ago I had no hope and was desperate to stop living. A few years, and lots of hard work later I am so much better. I had to learn to not be so hard on myself so I focused on my job (I don’t have a partner so needed money to pay bills) and resting. Since Christmas my therapy stopped but I was determined to get better so put a lot of work into organizing and cleaning my house as it was a tip. It’s still a work in progress but I have now started to cook again and feel I have more energy to do things. Next step starting to socialize again. I am so determined to get better. A few years ago, probably even last year I would not have imagined this was possible. My mind is calm and I can do things again. My anxiety has reduced and I refuse to entertain thoughts of self harm/suicide. I feel like finally I have control back over my life. Keep going however you feel today because things can change. It takes time and effort but it’s so worth it xxx

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Imagines with my happy childhood play in front of my eyes. When time passed and I grew up I was more and more unhappy, with physical manifestation of depression and anxiety. Today I'm lost in this life, feeling that I missed my purpose somewhere in the road of life.

[notanotter]

Hi Sarah1111111 , I was reading your post and really appreciate it even if it is an older post. It's hard to pull myself out of my own self-absorbed unhappiness sometimes. I'm too smart for my own good LOL. But every day is a new start, and while change is hard, 3 steps forward and 2 steps back is still 1 step forward to the better life.

I hope your depression is under control with all this COVID madness and isolation. Sending good thoughts.

[Sarah1111111 in reply to notanotter]

So glad it helped. It’s helpful for me to re read it so long after I wrote it too 😀 I hope you keep going in the direction of recovery. Like you say we all have dips but if we keep going things can improve again. All the best for the future x