Normal? ...

[dbeck128]

Hi all, I just wanted a little reassurance with what I’m going through. It helps to know I’m not the only one.

About mid day- early evening my anxiety starts.

I feel scattered brain, can’t think, brain feels dead, hard to process anything.

I get panicky. That I’m going to lose control & my thoughts will consume me and make me do things I don’t wanna do.

I start thinking if I think these thoughts it’s really me and sometimes I don’t even feel bad for thinking about them, which eventually gets on my nerves and will panic occasionally.

I feel like I’m going insane, and I get a sick feeling in my stomach.

Normal? How do you cope? Is there hope? Good meds you’ve had a good experience with? Will this depression and anxiety consume me, or will it get better?

[jkl5500]

It will get better, but you must have treatment for it. I hope you are doing so. If not, please see your doc soon to get started.

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I also struggle with negative thoughts, and sometimes it's to the point where I dislike myself and admit that I'm not a good person. But then other times, I think about things I have morals for that many people don't have or seem careless about. Really though, I guess no one is perfect.

[Hope4me1]

I am struggling with waking up with fear and anxiety. I do still have good days where I feel I can do anything, I wonder how can this be? Right now I have no medical insurance and I finally found a clinic that will take me on a sliding fee scale which I can afford. The problem is that they are very busy there and I can’t see a psychiatrist to evaluate my meds until months away. I have seen the therapist, but when we made the next appointment it is a month from now. I try to stay positive and I can say that faith can help. I have been using CBD along with my .5 mg Clonazepam and Fluoxetine and feel this helps me cope better. I found a dr from a former therapist who I had to stop seeing because of the financial burden and there was no psychiatrist connected to her practice. I have always carried the Clonazepam in my purse in case of a pain attack, but never have used them regularly. Unfortunately I had a bout of sleepless anxious nights and started to take them more often. I was having withdrawal symptoms and I read that you can’t take this drug as needed only. So I started taking them regularly. I felt better for a while, but ran into problems with more anxiety. So I made an appointment with the recommended Dr who would see me even though I have no insurance. He said to keep taking the Clonazepam and Fluoxetine but add CBD which is a derivative of marijuana that does not contain THC which is the part that makes you high. CBD just calms you and helps clear your mind. It is quite expensive for me because I need to take 150mg or more, but that’s just me. It’s working until I get to see a psychiatrist, but I still have symptoms.

I have had this happen to me before and I did become better with the help I needed. I was well for over 25 years or more, so no doubt, you will beat it too,!with proper care. Many people have overcome this and you will, too!😊

[dbeck128 in reply to Hope4me1]

I guess I would just like some clarification if you or anyone ever feels like this, this is how my day will start

My obsession will carry from last night.

My mind constantly tells me to act on it.

I don’t feel anxious anymore.

I feel kind of irritated. Like... this again?

It subsides, only for a few minutes. Then my mind is back on it.

I feel like there’s no reason not to do it. Like I should just do it to get rid of the voices.

I will obsess and then eventually think I like the thoughts. Or am at least comfortable with them.

Then try to feel apathy, but sometimes I can’t. And I know I CAN, because I cry over everything. Especially when I accidentally hurt someone.

I just don’t feel like fighting. Or getting help. Especially getting help. Because I’ve been suffering so long I don’t feel the motivation to be better or get better.

[Hope4me1 in reply to dbeck128]

This sounds like you are crying out for help. Please know that help is there for you and so worth it! I pray for your wellbeing.

[Lazy_dog_lover]

Wow, that's a lot to process. Is it "normal"... Define normal. Everyone's normal is different.

If it is just thoughts and no actions, then change the dialog in your head. Create 10 note cards that changes the thoughts through the "growth mindset" or just positive mantras.

Do things get better? Yes, they can, but you have to do your part. Group therapy sounds like it might be useful since you are looking for others' experiences.

Meds vary greatly and the mixture makes all the difference. That is a doctor discussion. Keep asking him or her. Journal about what they do and don't do, because they will ask.

Your normal is your normal. You can't compare, perhaps just empathize.

Best wishes.