Missing someone

[DistressedPoe]

I think...the more time goes by, the sadder I get because I miss my friend. These couple of weeks have been such torture because of my anxiety and more than anything I just want to talk to him and hear his voice because it genuinely calms me down. I don't know how. But it does.

I even asked him if he could make time since he's really busy these days getting swamped with university workload and assignments and he said he'd try to make time but I guess he really just couldn't. He barely even sees messages or replies after HOURS. Sigh...I understand how busy he is so I'm not mad. But...I REALLY wish we could talk bcs this feeling of emptiness is bringing me down and making me feel worse.

Worst part is, he doesn't even know. I couldn't tell him how important he is to me and how much I care bcs I was literally moving away to a new country unsure about which uni I was going to study in. I couldn't just...confess and leave. And now I regret it bcs I am actually going back home and studying in a uni near him rather than a different country (not because of him ahahah it just...the university I originally wanted to go to is too expensive so my parents decided not to send me overseas).

Sighhh. What a weird and annoying situation. I don't even know what I should do. I mean...what CAN one do ?

[jayman4699]

I’m sorry your going through all this I understand the feeling of missing your friends that’s what happen to me when I drop out of college because of the depression and anxiety just got to much to handle. I would definitely tell your friend how much he means to you even if it’s through text. Your not trying to guilt his way back into your life your just saying how you feel. I would also recommend getting out more and try and meet new people hope this helps

[DistressedPoe in reply to jayman4699]

It's hard to meet people in a small town where there's hardly anyone my age and I feel like a bit of a misfit.

I'm sort of left alone with my thoughts and it's really bothering me because I'm getting confused over why I've lost confidence in myself.

You really think I should ? Thing is, he's really busy and stressed. Im waiting for him to get a little free and then I'll tell. I don't think I can hide it for much longer.

[leanneski]

Hiya, I agree with jayman, it’s ok to let him know that you’re missing him, I also agree that you should try to meet new people at your new uni, try and enjoy your time there! X

[DistressedPoe in reply to leanneski]

My new uni will start in 5 months. And it's back home. With my friends. It's just...a long wait. And I'm not exactly on vacation bcs my parents are working and brothers have school. So I'm just...stuck here.

And thank you. I'll tell him the next chance I get.

[leanneski in reply to DistressedPoe]

I see! Well maybe just try to enjoy the break while you can, 5 months will come round before you know it x