I was married to my best friend. I didn't know he was gay but suspected he was and even asked him if he was and he looked me square in the eye and told me no. I found out a few months after we were married by going into his Facebook page and looking through his texts (I couldn't rest about it!) We ended up divorcing after trying to make it work, but there were so many other things besides his sexual preferences that caused our demise. My mom ran into his mom over the weekend and made a mockery of the whole situation by sending me a selfie of her and the mom. The mom asked her to take the pic but I seriously didn't want to see that woman because she and I had a horrible disagreement before her son returned with my things in trash bags at my parents' house. To make it worse, my mom showed me a picture of him and his new girl and he looks amazing and so does the girl. I immediately got jealous and angry at my mom for showing me the picture. I told her not to talk about him or show me anything else about him anymore. Today, I am depressed as hell thinking about my present state and how he's living it up with some new girl while I'm stuck with my mom (moving in a few weeks, I know) but more depressingly, single. I know I should be happier about singleness or at least find ways to be happy about it, but there are external factors such as how men pretty much disregard me and some have even called me ugly, just makes the matter worse. I'm really struggling right now. I really do feel hatred in my heart toward my ex. He put me through all kinds of crap with all the lies and it ruined my life. His living in another country and everything! It just shed a huge bright light on my life and how much I've been through because of him.