Road to nowhere

[-Sasha-]

I'm so tired of hurting... I'm tired of being lonely... I'm tired of turning into a robot just to function and get through the day. I'm tired of feeling guilty for not being a better mom to my boys. I'm tired of being trapped in a relationship that has turned me into a shell of the person I used to be. I know the depression makes everything feel worse than it actually is, but that doesn't change the fact that I still have to feel this $h!+ and still somehow manage to live through it over and over.

[Kat63]

Do you have a therapist? They can help you think of ideas to change your life for the better. Also, medication might help.

[-Sasha- in reply to Kat63]

I am actually looking for a therapist. Even though the support on here is great, I just can't seem to tell my story. I suspect it will still be difficult with a therapist but hopefully not as difficult with the right one.

As far as medication goes, I really was trying not to go that route because I already take medication for a few things and didn't want to add more. At this point I have to try every option available.

[mrmonk]

Hi Sasha,

I can relate to that feeling of utter exhaustion, depletion, borne of troubled self or circumstance. I'm sorry you are going through this. I know from one of your earlier posts that you have a hard time opening up, but if you ever want to talk/vent, feel free to message me, I'm usually around, and I will listen. Take care and be well.

[-Sasha- in reply to mrmonk]

Thank you. It's been a bad couple of days and everything seem to pour out earlier today. Still been a crappy day but I do feel a lil better. Thanks so much for the offer and the support. I'm grateful to have you and this community to turn to.

[mrmonk in reply to -Sasha-]

You're welcome. Sometimes, just posting things out here is enough to see us through another day.

[jesca18]

When will it end? When will things get better? Will they get better? I can totally relate. So tired of being on auto pilot day after day.. it’s exhausting pretending to be a normal human being.