I no longer can take this

[Adamj]

after last night I’ve had my final straw idk wtf is going on with me it’s always just anxiety no matter who or where I go. Last night was laying there flipped to my right side and it felt like my body started to freeze up not cold but like I felt like I just froze I could barely speak or move felt heaviness in my chest felt like I couldn’t breath I didn’t know wtf happened I’m tired of my body constantly being in high alert doing weird shit every time I feel somewhat okay bam something happens and it puts me right back into that fear. I really cannot handle any of this anymore. All I want to do is sleep or try and force myself to sleep. I’m tired of obsessing over things tired of being scared tired of the weird shit happening. Hell I was just sitting there and I had this like fear come over me and felt my heart racing. Like wtf is malfunctioning inside of me. Hell I looked out the window while I was in the bathroom and I guess the brightness from outside made me dizzy for a couple seconds I was like wtf. My brain doesn’t work properly anymore it feels like it’s jumping all over the place feels like my reality jumps feels like im in a dream. I AM TIRED OF BEING IN PAIN AND THIS WEIRD SHIT I FEEL CRAZY AND LIKE IM BEING KILLED. Even laying here typing this I feel like I’m moving like on a boat or something. I’ll be looking at my phone scrolling through TikTok or something and that motion will make me feel like im moving or make me dizzy or something. Like is there something killing me that I don’t see. I don’t get how I can have such weird things happening but not really have pain anywhere besides my chest and it’s not even bad just aches. And these damn random ass memories that keep popping up into my head that have nothing to do with what I’m thinking about just random memories from my past that literally have no current meaning they’re not bad memories literally could be just a memory of me walking down the hall in school or something. Like are the connections in my brain so fucked. Did covid, stress, anxiety, depression, cause this or something else. I’m so frustrated and tired of it. Maybe this just means my life is actually over.

[Adamj]

I can’t do this anymore

[ziggypiggy]

Hang in there. Your mind is playing with your fight or flight response. It can brutal.

[Adamj in reply to ziggypiggy]

But how do I stop it

[Adamj in reply to Adamj]

Deep breathing doesn’t do anything and I’ve been practicing

[ziggypiggy in reply to Adamj]

There is no sure fire way to stop it. Everyone is different. Do you have a therapist or counselor you are working with. They can at least help you keep perspective. I've been struggling with depression and anxiety that keeps me bedridden for weeks at a time. Are you taking any medications to help?

[Adamj in reply to ziggypiggy]

I have Xanax that I’ve take when it gets really bad like last night. Not on any long term medicine. Was on buspar but it seemed to make my anxiety worse.

[Adamj]

And of course I come across and article saying this can all cause cardiomyopathy

[Stippler]

Hi Adamj - I am so sorry you are going through this. Have you ever tried Vistaril for anxiety? It was originally for allergies (like Benadryl) but they have also found it useful for anxiety w/o causing depression. I used to take it and had no side effects. You might ask your doctor about it. Hope this helps.

[Adamj in reply to Stippler]

They gave that for me to take at night time to sleep

[Starrlight in reply to Adamj]

Hope you had a good sleep. I’m doing the same. 💫🌙

[theanxietykid]

You have the same as me same thing you keep posting is the same with me man, I have controlled it a lot if you need help give me a text

[Kamgal5]

It’s literally the result of adrenaline from your anxiety. Find ways in your day and night to exercise to release it… then spend time doing things that relax you.. bath, meditate, pray, read, ( I suggest two books- Hope and Help for your Nerves and DARE), deep breathing, ( there are free apps for this). I find putting Vicks vapor rub under my nose when I feel anxious helps too. Try to turn off the fear of what you are feeling ( that is if you know you are in good health by a Dr)… and instead of reacting to any negative symptoms you have- turn the “ what ifs” into “ so what… whatever”. Seriously read DARE.

[catsrock]

I'm so sorry you are going through this. I hope you can find some relief soon. Just know, we all get it and wish you the best.

[Daveacr1959]

30 minutes of daily Wim Hof breathing exercises. And 40 minutes of daily cardio exercise. Even if it’s jogging in place in your house. Put ice and water in a big pan of water. Put your head in for a minute. Then rest a few minutes and do it again. Then put your hands in the cold water 5 minutes. And then your feet 5 minutes. It all releases chemicals in the brain.

[Nanii]

To me you sound oversensed and hyperfocused on your senses at the same time. You're taking meds, so they can also cause all kinds of (little) sensations.

At least I want to assure you of 2 things you mentioned. Feeling like a boat because you're scrolling IS NOT STRANGE! Especially if you've been doing it a while. You could try and test it out when you feel like this. For example when you're on tiktok and feel like this. Check if lowering brightness helps reduce it. Or if you also have it while scrolling on other apps. You could think every app scrolls the same, but they don't, this has to do with the way it's coded. Also how much it annoyes your senses can depend on as I said, brightness, but also the colors used in the app. My eyes are sensitive to light, so I notice these kind of differences and adjust to it. Meaning lowering brightness, using an extra nightscreenfilter app or simply, leaving my phone alone because my eyes don't like it. I'm concious of this, so I don't get anxiety over this. Maybe raising your conciousness like this can help you too.

An other one is looking out of your window. Here again, a light thing. Could be you sensed the difference in inside and outside light or the way light is directed into your bathroomwindow. Which again, IS NOT STRANGE. You're body feels things, processes things, A LOT more than we're aware of, but we CAN be. Otherwise as most often raised. You know like people should be and are numb and if you feel something, oh no oh no youdon't! Well, you do. We do. I hope this kind of thinking helps a bit and some thing can be logically explained.

Sometimes it's like being an alien in your own body. WT* does this do??? Well.. just things. In the end it would be good for your mentalhealth to be able to look at it like that I think.

[Nanii in reply to Nanii]

I was also thinking about cold showers by the way. Maybe "just" breathing isn't enough and some natural engulfmend for your senses AND breathing might do the trick. There is a lot to find about the benefits of cold showers or the examples Daveacr1958 made on youtube. Really good for health, anxiety, depression, sickness etc.