I find myself hating myself more and more. No therapy helped, no meds helped. I got worse over the years. I feel selfish because things could be way worse for me, but aren't and I don't mean to take that for granted. I fail God feeling this way. I try my best with my limited abilities but in the end I don't mean nothing, my existence is that I'm a ghost and I'm tired of myself and dealing with myself. I'm tired of feeling extreme anxiety,depression, loneliness, isolation, selfishness, and being a ghost just passing through people with no purpose and that nobody cares if I exist or not besides my family. I know God has a purpose for everyone, but I'm just here. I'm 32 nothing to show for it, but to be an inconvenience to everyone around me. My point is I'm really starting to hate me and it's getting harder finding reasons not too. I'm sorry if I'm sounding ungrateful, I know I can be at times. I'm not proud of that but the depression just gets to much. I'm just tired of me.....
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your good person and that matters
I can recommend good psychiatrist- see chat later in day. Going to work now
I am sorry you are feeling this way. Please try to go easier on yourself if you can. Sending prayers.
Thank you, I'm trying. I appreciate the prayers! 🙏
Come on Shield of Faith you are no quitter. The way out of your negative thoughts is within yourself and your faith. Don’t conform to this world and stop comparing yourself to others. To love you have to love yourself and see your good points. We all have gifts, strengths and weaknesses. What is your gift? Don’t say you don’t have any because you do, we are all unique in that way. You have to stop analysing yourself all the time and beating yourself up. That won’t work. You can be a light for others because we need each other. Life is hard but we are told “have l not commanded you, be strong and of good courage for the Lord thy God is with you wherever you go.” You will not fail if you look more to him and not expect too much of yourself. Give yourself to him, don’t hold back, put your cares on him and he will change your life. That is a promise and God doesn’t lie.
Thank you, I'm trying to trust in God. But these days I'm not doing the best job because my anxiety and depression gets to much. I'm trying to hold to the good I do, but I just keep remembering more of me being a burden to others. Thanks for the kind very words and replying to my post. 🙏
You have to stop thinking all of these things about yourself. It’s the devil lying to you and he wants to keep you in this bondage. Give him a nervous breakdown and tell him you only listen to Jesus. He is terrified of that name. God does not say you are a burden. You are the apple of his eye. Your family are put there by God for you and l bet they love you to bits. They haven’t abandoned you because they love you and want to see you well, just as Jesus does. Come on, your title is faith on here. I have faith in you and God that your life can be good, even if you think that is not possible, nothing is impossible with God. One word from him and he created the universe.
I know. God has always been there for me. I'm being selfish to him for feeling this way.
Good morning to you it’s 10 am here in UK. I am praying for you that you look more to God and less to yourself. We all fall short and get things wrong (don’t forget he made us in his image). He is a forgiving God and wipes the slate clean. We will not be pure until we get to Heaven. You need a closer relationship with God and less with yourself. This is not how you want to be or how God wants you to be. You must accept yourself as you are and the way he made you. You are needed and are here for a reason. You just have to try your best and let God do the rest. You have to try. 🥰
I know your right! I'm trying to do better for God. 🙏
I have and will keep praying for you. I have great faith in you and God that he will turn your life around. Meet him halfway and try your best to go forwards. One step at a time because you are not in a race. I pray that God will fill you with his Holy Spirit and give you peace. God bless. 🙏🥰
Thank you for the prayers! It really means alot! ✝️🙏
l will keep praying for you ok? Jesus died for us so that we have life and have life to the full. One thing you can rely on is change. Nothing ever stays the same. Keep asking and knocking and don’t give up hope because there are special plans in place for you to fulfill. We are all here for a reason and purpose. Keep reading his word and memorise his promises because he is faithful and true and will give you the victory over all that the world is throwing at you. God bless. 🥰
Thank you, I know. I get selfish sometimes, I don't mean to. I overthink alot. But I'm trying to be better for God. ✝️🙏
l don’t think you are one bit selfish Shield and neither does Jesus. You have issues at the moment that are preventing you from living a full life. The Lord looks at the heart and knows that you do not want to be as you are. So you have to work with him in getting yourself well. It begins with you. Take his hand and walk out in faith and see what he will do for you. You are not a bad person, you have done nothing wrong in the eyes of God and are doing nothing wrong. He knows how you feel and how you are in this bondage. . I will pray for you everyday that you are released from this burden and filled with peace and joy. Please keep trying to get better and don’t give up, the Lord is in front of you, behind you and beside you. Keep me updated on your progress. What have you done today? Set yourself goals each day. God Bless you.🙏✝️
Thank you very much! I appreciate the prayers and the inspiring kind words. I know Jesus sees my heart, I just still get worried. I'm trying still to be better. 🙏✝️
l am glad you are trying. Please do not worry because nothing can separate us from the love of God. I know it is tough for you. I have also suffered with anxiety and panic attacks so l know how you feel. It can get better and you can come out the other end, despite you not seeing a way out. Put your faith in God, hold on to him. Those who wait on the Lord will not be disappointed. I will put you in my prayers today. Remember you are loved with an everlasting love and you will never be forgotten or forsaken. You are still young, there is plenty of time. Cast your cares on him. God bless and keep you safe. ✝️🙏
I'm not entirely sure how to reply to this, I know last time I replied to you I advised you to talk to your pastor; somehow I'm getting a feeling that you are not getting a lot of support there. Is there another Church you could go to, perhaps?
I'm in UK, and no longer a churchgoer personally, but still a caring person for all that. Nursing was my work, I loved it. I have had bad experiences with Churchgoing people; my face doesn't fit. I was widowed fairly young, and the gossip which went around about me was poisonous. it nearly broke me, only my two children, under school age, saved me.
I know Church is important to you, but it is guidance for life, not the be all and end all of life. At some point you will need to take a step out from under that umbrella to really live your life. I'm sure God would prefer you to be active, healthy and more happy than you are currently.
Personally, I don't feel humans are supposed to be permanently Happy, happy, Joy, joy, but rather quietly content with what they have achieved with their lives..
Don't know if this will help, but I hope it gives you some food for thought.
Cheers, Midori
I aim to be better then what I'm feeling now. God has been good to me. I'm putting my faith in God instead drowning in my sorrows.
Sorry your still suffering. i believe in the old adage that "God helps those who help themselves" because we have free will and an all benevolent god would not want us to suffer but learn how to love ourselves unconditionally, I think that is our true purpose here.
I'm trying. I fail God alot. I have my issues. But God still accepted me, even with all my issues. I'm trying to be more hopeful. 🙏
It could be that you aren't accepting yourself - just food for thought.
Shield_Of_Faith I just want to offer you what often gives me hope: You are going through these tough times. But, in going through them, we don't always understand the whys of it all. I think that sometimes God, or life will put us through the gauntlet. But it can be for the greater plan of us someday guiding somebody through their "personal gauntlet," by our experiences going through it ourselves. I know you are suffering, but you are a blessing to God and the world. It is often through trials that we learn to put our experiences into action in a truly understanding way. I am continuing to hold you in prayer. Please don't ever give up. 🙏🙏🙏
I know. It just gets disheartening when I see my family and people from church all happy and stuff socializing, then there is me, the outcast, the quiet social anxiety awkward guy. I wish I can be like everyone else and try to make friends and find a wife one day but I know God 1st above everything else and things could be a lot worse in my life. I just get those weak moments. Sorry I'm trying to be better for God. ✝️🙏
There is no need to apologize. Sending prayers. It will be okay. 🙏🙏🙏
I just wanted to stay that I am so inspired by your posts. You have such wisdom to share. Despite dark days, there is part of you that is drawn to the light. Don't forget that. I have suffered from panic attacks, but with medication and therapy, they have gotten much better. I have gone years now without them. When I do have them they last for 4-6 weeks and then are gone. So for me I have learned to see the glass as more than half full. They used to be debilitating but now my panic attacks do not scare me anymore. As a results, when I don't have them I am so grateful for life. It will be the same way with you. Realize that we are all here for each other and we know what you are going through. You are never alone. God is always there for you love and loves you unconditionally.
Thank you I appreciate that! And I'm glad your handling your anxiety better these days that's a blessing! 🙏
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