I'm done.

[Pieces99]

I am really really confused. I had this crappy day where I was constantly controlling my emotions. I thought maybe some good will happen or something. Now I am at this phase in which I am really scared, angry, guilty, and confused. I'm trying to figure it out what's causing it but I have no clue. Right now, I'm constantly crying, I am getting mad inside and out. Seeing me like this my mom what's wrong with me and I'm like if I knew myself, I would have love to share it with you. I am scratching myself all over my body, beating and slapping myself, my temperature is rising up. In the end I'm so fucked up. The whole day, I tried to stay positive but in the end it's the negativity who wins. I hate myself all over again. Things are so messed up. So much.

I am not able to express also when I write. I need help.. But I dont know where, how would I get it.

[torpe]

I’m here with you in understanding and I’m so sorry that you feel this way it sounds like panic attacks or anxiety in my opinion. I’m sorry you’re feeling like this. Do you think there might be any support groups in your area? I think it helps when you say what you’re feeling out loud. In any way you can. Deep breathing also helped me or forcing your arms away from your body and lying flat and iiiiiiiiiiin....out repeat. I hope this is at least a tad helpful

[brokenlight]

Reaching out and talking about your experience is a great first step. There are a lot of resources out there.

Moodpath is an app that has been very helpful for me & can instantly connect you to a counselor & more.

Try to be gentle with yourself & I hope you can find the support that you need.

[HisChild4ever]

I am glad you are sharing. A therapist could help a lot. We who are not professionals can provide you some support but we do not have the proper training to know why you are having the symptoms you describe. I would suggest not being harsh on yourself. Some things have explanations and you are a human being with value who is having a hard time. I wish you well.

[Pieces99 in reply to HisChild4ever]

I'm sorry for the late reply. I met a new psychiatrist as well I will be going to a counselor today. Thank you. 😊

[HisChild4ever]

We wish you the best! I really hope you feel a lot better very soon!