Suffering too much these days. I'm scared, wondering why. In may i was better but since a few days i'm losing it

[Against_the_current]

I'm struggling too much since the end of may, maybe 25th. I Wonder If it's normal. I get overwhelmed, i don't even know how to respond, i get overwhelmed and i go out and out i feel agoraphobic and alone. Alone and scared. Not knowing where i am. Dissosiating. Having nightmares and feeling like in a dream, nightmare. In may i felt really better but now i feel so miserable scared, sick, alone, confused, overwhelmed, not knowing what to do. I wake up and i don't know where i am... I'm blaming it on the heat and on having summer ptsd and of losing someone but it's just a terrible feeling. I want to cry all the time

[Starrlight]

Oh Real_Me, I’m sorry 😢 (((((((((hug)))))))))❤️💙💜 I know the fear and the loneliness in that fear and confusion and being overwhelmed with it all and all we feel like we are lacking in. It’s so hard. It comes in waves then we fall in then we struggle and get up and the important thing to remember we are so strong and after every difficulty comes ease. I must have been up and down more than a dozen times today and I’m exhausted from feeling, I feel like I feel too much...and I can’t drink but I can breathe deep breaths. I have to go out tomorrow so I’m very nervous because it’s been a while of hiding myself at home but I have to get out and once I’m out I will be better I bet. I have to be positive. My dog needs comforting because she’s shaking from fear of a thunderstorm brewing ... it helps me when I help others. Do you find that to be true? It’s amazing how that works. When we are down or afraid look to think of how we can be compassionate to self and others. I don’t know if any of this helps at all. But know you are cared for by me and others here and hang in there.

[Against_the_current in reply to Starrlight]

Thanks. I needed this reminder it gets better. I struggle with agoraphobia too. My sister is also scared of thunderstorms. She's away now. Every time it rains i want to hug her but i'm not there and i feel bad. I'm really trying to help myself by helping people, i'm studing for a therapist, hope i can make it. Hope your dog calmed

[Starrlight in reply to Against_the_current]

That sounds nice, studying to be a therapist and even the thought of hugging to calm your sister. I now needed the reminder too that things get better. I’m sitting here worrying that something bad is about to happen but it’s wasting my life and making me sick. I’m going to try to relax more it’s easier now that my kids have finished school for the day. School has become a trigger for me some days. I have my kids at home with me for school.

How are you doing now?

[Gealtachta]

Hi Real_Me,I’m sorry you are struggling so much right now. It sounds like you have a lot of things going on. I ride the emotional rollercoaster a lot too. I have been feeling a little better as well and then I have a terrible down day and feel awful. I think it is normal to be up and down with depression/anxiety with daily triggers.

I also believe if you feel like crying and you can then cry. Let those feelings out, it may not always work but holding that all in isn’t healthy either. I know the goal is to not feel like crying but until then allow yourself.

There are so many people with so much experience on here. It really is great to feel you are not the only one!!!

[Against_the_current in reply to Gealtachta]

Thanks. I needed to hear it's normal when you have these illnesses. And i just feel like crying but can't cry, i would feel better but i just can't. Thanks for caring

[Starrlight in reply to Against_the_current]

I almost cry all the time but don’t usually and it’s frustrating isn’t it?

[Hidden]

Hello Real Me. You are stronger than you know. You can get through this and get to the other side of it. I have faith in you.

[Against_the_current in reply to Hidden]

Thank you!

[Linaachi]

Hey. I am going through something similar. Everything around me is falling apart. May 25th was my birthday and it started going downhill from there. All my days are crap and everyday comes with a new problem. Im so exhausted. I got demoted at work, having problems with the family and a lecturer at school is giving me hell. I honestly don't know what to do. Sometimes i feel like its getting better then boom, a worse problem.

[Against_the_current in reply to Linaachi]

I feel you so much. Espessially since 24th-25th everything feels unreal. Like all bad things happening to get me insane. I'm sorry you're there too and hope you feel better soon and i'm grateful you shared this with me. How are you now?

[KJnOTT]

If it is abnormal for you then you may want to reach out to your doctor. It could be stress, hormonal, and many other things. Here is a contact for a free session with a licensed counselor who may be able to provide you some advice/support - 855-382-5433. I encourage you to reach out. Hang in there!

[Against_the_current in reply to KJnOTT]

Thanks