How I feel

[Shelly46]

I am new here to this site. I’m hoping to get support from people who know what I’m going through as well as try to help someone else. I suffer from anxiety and depression. I’m just wondering some days I just can’t stop the tears from falling. It seems like I push away the people who love me most. Does anyone feel the same way.

[Yumaris]

I know exactly how you feel. I’m new also and trying to get help from maybe hearing other people’s struggles. You are not alone

[Shelly46 in reply to Yumaris]

Thank you!

[JEG325 in reply to Shelly46]

S46, everyone else who responded here, I have several small chatlines of 12 to 17 people who communicate often. The small groups form an additional support structure to help you cope with life. I operate them from my personal message thread right on this site. They are free and easy to join. I personally oversee them and I do not allow bullying, profanity, overt sex talk or illegal activities. Our members are sweet people who have the same problems you do. Circle Of Friends 5 is taking new members right now. There will be a Circle Of Friends 6 too. Our busiest chatline is Circle Of Friends 2B. You may join any chatline you wish. If you give me the okay, I will add your username to the chatline list and you may begin chatting immediately. If further details are needed, I will cheerfully provide them too. Even if you don't join, I want you to have a blessed day!

[Khaj]

Hi Shelly,

So it took me about an hour to figure out how to respond to this post. I'm not a big computer person! I'm trying to get out of my comfort zone, meet new folks, and get out of this rut. Depression sucks. It really does suck the life and fun right out of us.

When is the last time you did something nice for yourself and what was it?

[Shelly46 in reply to Khaj]

Probably about a month ago. I went and got my nails done. It made me feel good. I try running 5 miles a day but today I just couldn’t the tears just kept coming.

[Khaj in reply to Shelly46]

5 miles holy moly! Good for you girl! I wouldn't make it to the end of the block. It's good your taking care of yourself though. Understand the hopeless feelings too, but we gotta find a way through that darkness. Right!

[Shelly46 in reply to Khaj]

Yes

[IChoose in reply to Shelly46]

Wow. You must look fabulous!! Interesting that even the running endorphins don't work. I wonder if there could be hormonal involvement.

[bluestars725]

Hi, welcome. I feel the same way. I suffer from generalized anxiety disorder and depression, and some days I feel like I have no tears left. Today was one of those days. I also struggle with isolating myself from people who care about me as well because often my anxiety and depression is too much to be around anyone at all. I hope this site is helpful for you. I've been here almost three months and I have found it to be a great comfort.

[Icanbeathis2016]

I definitely understand your emotions and how it brings us to tears. I too am not a stranger to "the cry out". I've cried so much and for so long. I will say that after I cry it does give a bit if relief so I actually dont mind crying. Its probably a way to release the stress. I've been going through my journey of anxiety and mild depression for over 3 years and I know how it can pull you into the abyss of hopelessness and defeat and frustration all at once which brings on the tears. I have had my spells of isolating myself, quitting work, and feeling not like myself because my anxiety makes me just want to be to myself or also that I dont want to burden anyone with my struggles. It's like they'll never really get what we go through even just mentally if they've never been through it. You are not alone. I'd like to share my broadcast endeavor with you. Its another platform for people to communicate and talk about the fears and worries. A way to show my face as I talk about the journey of anxiety and fear of the inevitable. Check it out if you can. I wish us the best 😊

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[IChoose]

I have been that way many times throughout my life. Relationships can be complicated and so can people though, and sometimes the toxic people in our lives that push and pull on us and be the cause of some of these problems.

[Ollyvie]

Hello Shelly46,

I can understand how you feel right now and want you to know that you are not alone. I know some days can be more challenging than others. It kind of happen to most people when they are dealing with anxiety and depression. When the days are not all that great, look for something inspirational to listen to or watch. Let your voice be the loudest voice in your head and mind. Speak and encourage yourself. Literally talk yourself out that you will be fine, and you can pull through. You are a survivor. If you have managed up till now, then you’ve got what it takes to deal with this. I know it can be challenging to keep up with relationships when we are not in good mood. I hope and pray they come to understand you better. Its not your fault and doing that you feel this way. Keep hope alive.