I've lived with depression my whole life and it has beaten me down.
I was the only boy with 3 sisters and a mother and father who hated their life and took it out on me. Physical abuse (slaps, hits, belts, hangers, fist, feet) and emotional terror was my life most days of my childhood. I'm 27 now and have been seeking and receiving treatment for about 6 years.
It has steadily gotten worse over my life and the last 6 months have been a serious test on my will to live.. it's virtually gone. The only thing keeping me alive is the fact that I dont want to die. I've almost ended it 3 times and I dont think there will 4th "try" as they say.
I dont have much time left, I'm lost.