I've lived with depression my whole life and it has beaten me down.
I was the only boy with 3 sisters and a mother and father who hated their life and took it out on me. Physical abuse (slaps, hits, belts, hangers, fist, feet) and emotional terror was my life most days of my childhood. I'm 27 now and have been seeking and receiving treatment for about 6 years.
It has steadily gotten worse over my life and the last 6 months have been a serious test on my will to live.. it's virtually gone. The only thing keeping me alive is the fact that I dont want to die. I've almost ended it 3 times and I dont think there will 4th "try" as they say.
I dont have much time left, I'm lost.
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Sad_Sausan
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First off welcome to the site. Your story is such a sad one yet here's the good news....you suffered at the hands of your dad...not you...shame on him and one day he WILL answer, aren't you glad to know you aren't like that. i'm here for you. Dump trucks of love, peace, light, joy & hugs!
hi mate you do have time believe me and you have plenty of amazing years ahead of you.i had some of what you suffered at home apart from feet/fists I was know as the bxxxxxd child at times not nice growing up with those thoughts.life will always be a test even for people who don't suffer.our test is just a little harder at times.keep at it keep talking try new things from time to time.most importantly keep the faith.
Hi sad! I’m so glad you posted on this forum. This group is great at talking things out. They are understanding, warm, and nurturing. I’m so sorry to hear your story. Shame on your parents. You are a blessing! You seem like such a kind and beautiful soul. I think you will make a fabulous parent. Maybe that could be something to look forward to?!?!
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