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well my sis died in a car crash right in front of my eyes.....n blood was on my face n i could not help her....n i was supposed to die in the crash but she saved me n she died.....we had a very big fight before the crash n i could not say sorry...from that day the thought comes.......i also had a heart operation...n i still have the problem...n july is my next operation n i am not sure tht i will surrive......i tried to suicide 3 times......my heart cant take this depression.....i lost ,many of my loved ones.....i feel alone everytime n i cry in the dark n sometime dont get out of my room....so i thought to give life one more chance.....but it is very tough.......

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So sorry for you unfathomable loss.

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just know that there are people that love you in this world. I'm sure your sister forgives you and she wouldn't want it to be like this. If nothing else, live life for her.

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Thank u soo much....

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There is a reason why she saved you. I can't even begin to understand the heart break you are going through but just think of how she would want you to try & live a happy life. You will go through alot before you start healing but remember how she would have wanted you to be happy.

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Sorry for your loss and for how devastated you must feel.

I’m glad you are doing your best to give life a chance. I’m certain your sister would not wish you to feel bad.

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I will try my best..

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Do not feel bad about the fight , your sister does not hold that against you , you are here for a reason snd your sister is in your heart and watching from above , she wants you to be happy , God wants you to be happy . Get out of bed and live life to the fullest for you and your sister .

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Thank u soo much... I needed it....

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I am so sorry that you are going through this. I can’t imagine what you are feeling regarding your sister, I know it is tough for you. But I know your sister would want you to live, and I know your family wants the same. It will not be an easy journey as you know but I will be praying for you and your heart operation. Keep giving life a chance. You are loved and You are here for a reason! Hugs and Prayers! 🦋

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Thank you soooooooooooooo much 😢😢.....

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she saved you- that means your life matters. it matters to her! it doesn't sound like you have had closure with it. is there anyway you could go to grief counseling? or find someone else who is mourning a sibling or other family member? i also think starting an antidepressant could be beneficial to get through this rough time. please do not hurt yourself, your life is meant for something.

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Thank u...... I will keep this in mind......

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Try snd go do something fun, and laugh and let yourself feel happy about it , and know that your sister is enjoying it with you spiritually . Be happy ❤️

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thank u

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