Finally I went to the doctor for help!
Last week I couldn't sleep my mind was on overdrive I was so angry. I looked up my doctors surgery to see in they had an email address or something I would have a rant to. So I came across an online consultant form where you fill out the problem and the doctor will get back to you in 24hours.. So I tried it, got a call the next day and they booked me an appointment..Great!
The comes the day and lucky I have a rotten cold so my brain is consumed with that to stress or panic about the appointment.. Walked in to find a young male doctor about the same age as me and felt completely stupid.
But as soon as he asked that question "what can I help you with today?" the flood gates opened and I just cried and babbled a load of god knows what at him.
So anyways after a long chat he says I have depression (knew this already but to have a Doctor say it helped in a strange way)
We discussed treatments and although I have been against medication for years I agreed to try the mildest thing he could offer. Citalopram 10mg.
Lets see how I get on :/