Hey I’m new. For the past 2 years I’ve kept my depression and anxiety to myself. My mother was diagnosed with bipolar disorder schizophrenia and deep depression, so much so she couldn’t raise me so I grew up with my dad and didn’t even meet her until 6th grade. I’m 23 now. When I was younger my dad would tell me it wasn’t depression and that I just over react to everything. It wasn’t until I got older that I began to understand that I was having anxiety and depression. I would start to get suicide thoughts. I found myself googling ways to hurt myself. Even then my dad and family thinks nothing of it. I also don’t have a relationship with my mom because her sickness pushes people away. I wake up every morning and go to work with a smile on my face but no one knows that every night before I cried on my floor contemplating hurting myself. I feel alone in this.