Variable and aniexty

[Ncrazy]

Good morning to all,happy fall enjoy the beautiful color mother nature is a incredible artist.

So I am mentally fruit pie my disease came out of remission after 11 years. To you people worry like the movie Ted this is perment I can tell you it isn't you will get threw it.

So Iam engage,for write now.Being sick or mental fruit pie,makes you insecure unconfident of your self,then throwing into the soup of tortures fun, obsession compulsive intrusive thoughts the cousin of aniextys.I am driving my fiancee up a wall with the questions like you sure you love me or how can you love me or why do you want to be with me.Her catching me looking for apartments.This disease has taken so much jobs relationships,my life keeps changing I can't get out of my own way.Having trouble getting out under of my fiancee dress.Over thinking what she says or when my boss says something God I feel like a delicate sensitive bag of estagen.i feel so variable open book.I get mad at medication take this or take that.it feels like nothing to put Pandora back in her box.please if any one knows how I feel or advice

[Agora1]

Hi Ncrazy, I do know how you feel. It's something I felt many years ago but that feeling never is forgotten. Your post is so positive in many ways. So I know you understand what is causing this feeling. You are correct in that this won't last forever. We just have to get through each episode as it comes. Anxiety makes us feel out of control both in body and mind. We become clingy and yet no one can reassure us that we are lovable, we do have a purpose in life. That's because, it needs to come from within ourselves.

We sometimes push others away by our feeling of loneliness and helplessness. No one can ever really understand our emotional pain short of another person who has experienced it. We do become sensitive in what is said to us. But remember, we may not be able to control what others say or do to us, but we can control how we accept it. As for medication, unfortunately, it's all about trial and error. The doctor finding the right med is only as good as having found the right dose for you as well. Frustrating to say the least. But so worth the effort when finding yourself our of Pandora's box.

I know your pain because I've felt it myself. Knowing what is causing it is half the answer. Finding what works for you is the other half in getting you to a safe and sane place in your life. Keep reaching out to the forum. We are here to support, understand and comfort you. I care. xx

[Ncrazy in reply to Agora1]

Thanks kid you as well keep fighting a good fight