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I just wrote a seven paragraph post on here about how things have changed for me in the last ten months, how my urges to SI are still affecting me in the form of what feels like a very real addiction, and how I’d like to reach out to others on this forum the way people reached out to me when I first joined. It took an hour. And then I accidentally swiped up and the whole thing is gone and there are honestly not words to describe how frustrated and upset I am. Craving Self-Injury so strongly at the moment. Nowadays, it’s like a wave of uncontrollable frustration.

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MariaLove123

Omg I understand that anger!! I’ve done that before. But look at it this way. At least you got everything out by writing. Journaling is a great release. And you can write it again tomorrow. Maybe tomorrow the right person will respond. Maybe it was meant to be posted tomorrow. Things happen for a reason and in mysterious ways. I’m so sorry though. Try hitting the back button a bunch of times. Sometimes if you double click your home button it shows recent activity and it could be there. If not, like I said it might not have meant to be tonight. I’m sending you a big hug 🤗

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MoreThanFun in reply toMariaLove123

Thanks for the advice, I’ll try to do that. “I can return to this tomorrow,” is kind of what I told myself to get over the initial stress, but your points about when the post is meant to be are so positive and insightful. I gratefully accept your virtual hug.

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MariaLove123 in reply toMoreThanFun

That made my night. I am so glad I was able to help. Look at JEG325’s response below. Maybe that’s a good idea!

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JEG325 in reply toMariaLove123

Writing is great. I'm going to conduct a 10 person group chat where we share our writing, talk over ideas for future writing and talk about our favorite music. M123, are you interested?

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MariaLove123 in reply toJEG325

Yes!

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JEG325 in reply toMariaLove123

You're in. Starrlight and I are hosting it with 8 others joining in whenever they want. DarkShadow is 1, Hope1234 is one, DistressedMermaid is 1, Anxiety59, is one and there are several others. But the total will always be 10. Admin is currently looking into setting up a separate forum for us creative minded people. Cross your fingers for us.

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MariaLove123 in reply toJEG325

DistressedMermaid is my best friend so I’m in!

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JEG325 in reply toMariaLove123

Awesome! We'll let you know we get it set up. Understand that not everyone may be able to chat when the group is in session. Plus each person has to be notified separately about it. We'll set up a pool of 15 o 20 names so that 10 will be in the group as often as possible....Thank you for accepting.

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MoreThanFun in reply toJEG325

Hi, JEG325, I was actually reading about this in your earlier posts! I’d love to be included if there is still space available ♥️

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JEG325 in reply toMoreThanFun

You are more than welcome. Spot #6 is yours, MoreThanFun. The forum will be open. While it's about writing and music, anything within reason can be discussed in the group chat. But, now you'll have 9 others to talk to! One thing we have to talk about is how we can best showcase our writing so everyone in the group can see it.

I have totally been there!!!!! I agree with the others. Maybe it wasn’t meant to be posted until tomorrow. If you still feel the same, I would definitely take the time to type it all out again! I look forward to reading it!!!!! <3

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Hey, hello, girl! I agree. We can always re-write anything. The problem mentioned is one that I have every so often. It angers and upsets me too. Some of my best advice has been lost that way. But, I still come back, tima after time and write something motivational. So, I understand you want to be one of the founding 10 in our 'Creative Expressions' open discussion & sharing group chat thread? Like to write or listen to music?

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Yes sir, I totally do! I love writing & listening to music! I love reading too! It’s definitely something that helps get me through the day!!!! <3

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Good, I' 3 for 3 on those things too. So, is DarkShadow. My beloved friend Starrlight is aces at everything. We will compile our list and then try to work out a group time. Allowances for different time zones around the world will have to be made. That could be tricky. But, we'll have something in the next few days if possible. I'm pretty excited about it too.

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Awww! Yes! That sounds so lovely. I am really excited about it. Thank you guys for coming up with it. If you need my help with anything, please let me know! I am going to be on the road headed home tomorrow, but I should have some free time tomorrow night so if you message me, I’ll reply around then! Thanks for being great!!!! <3

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Love you too! 10 kazilion hugs to help keep you warm and safe on your way home! You are charter member #5, (DarkShadow is #3, MariaLove123 is #4).

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Ahhh, darn! My bestie got my favorite number! Hehe! I’m just kidding! She can have it! I’ll gladly take #5! <3 Sending you lots of hugs toooo! Thank you for the safe & warm wishes for me traveling home! xoxo

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Fly high girl, just for me. 'Night.

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MoreThanFun in reply to

Thank you so much! This actually encourages me to write the content again, even if I end up separating it into smaller posts to avoid the same problem. Things might be more digestible and discussable that way too. Maybe this is the message I was supposed to receive from the universe: “Chill out. You have more than one breath to tell your story.”

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I know exactly what you mean. I’ve done that on this website before too! I actually ended up deleting majority of my posts where I told my story. I’m starting over again though. I am going to follow you so I will be sure to check in on you & read your story. We are like a family here, so I’m so glad you could join us! Everything is gonna be okay! Stay strong, dear! xoxo

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JEG325 in reply toMoreThanFun

Now you have a new arena to work from too. Life is strange sometimes but, strange in a good way!

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fauxartist

that is so aggravating and annoying, and I am sorry that happened....I will tell you what I finally started doing.... I've done it too many times too, and finally I realized that if I wanted to do a long post...put it on 'word' first ....there is one button on my keyboard that I accidentally hit and then everything is gone...so that stops me from screaming now, because I will always have a copy.....

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MoreThanFun in reply tofauxartist

Yeah, I was thinking that I’ll start drafting things on my google drive first...

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hypercat54

Hi that's awful and I think it's happened to most of us here. Next time why not save it as you go along so if you do lose it you don't lost it all. x

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MoreThanFun in reply tohypercat54

Is there a saving option on HealthUnlocked as you go? Or are you suggesting I use a separate document?

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