This world is rotten

[Against_the_current]

Mom went out, i paniced because i thought she's going for more beer (probably was) and i said "why didn't you buy some sweets?" As If i was saying "what are you doing, are you drinking more". I really didn't know. I still don't know. Probably she just went to the car for something she forgot. And she started talking to me about how her job is stressful (she's a pharmasist), how everyone there is sick, how people are rude with her, how customers are rude to her, how her collegue is a bitch, how the system sucks (damn, stop saying communism is better mom, in communism they would kill me for just talking to an American. I'm born in 2000, i didn't make the system. I'm not a politician. I was just born in this world and i wish i wasn't. I didn't made this, i'm sick of People telling me how terrible it is, i never asked to be in it. I was just born and it was there. And it will be there after my death). AND HOW DAD LEFT US AND SHE'S COPING ALONE AND WHAT A FCKER HE IS AND HOW HARD IT IS TO BE A SINGLE MOM AND SIS HEARS AND FELT BAD. This shit hurts like hell. Her speech hurts like hell. My stomache hurts so much. I feel like i'm going to throw up. I like it when dad's not here, he's an idiot but MOM AND SIS ARE TRAUMATIZED FROM HIS ABSENCE AND NEED HIM, EVEN MATERIALLY AND ALSO EMOTIONALLY NEED HIM. AND IF I TELL HIM, HE WON'T UNDERSTAND. HE DOESN'T UNDERSTAND I'M DYING RN BECAUSE OF HIM.

[Kkimm]

HiIt sounds as if things are pretty bad for you all in your family and I feel for you. Life is is at times. I'm glad you have your mum and your sister.

Really hope you feel better soon.

Kim

[Hidden]

Are you okay??? Maybe you need to visit a friend or other relative for a few days and try to calm down yourself. Sounds like you’re living in a stressful situation and your mom is really getting to you.

[Against_the_current in reply to Hidden]

She is, unfortunately i have nowhere to go

[AuntBee]

Real Me, Im sorry to hear of your moms meltdown. That has to be hard to hear and see, after all, parents are supposed to be our rock, but even rocks crumble sometimes. Try this: Go to your mom and give her a random, surprise hug today. Then look at her and say “Mom, Ive thought about our conversation and I want to tell you Im so sorry your job is hard right now and life is so rocky for you. I want you to know I love you and no matter what, we will be ok”.

Being there to support her will help to open the door to tell your mom that somethings have been stressing you out as well and that while she may not be able to fix things for you, you would appreciate her support as well. Use this as an opportunity to be there for one another. Sending you a warm hug ❤️

[Against_the_current in reply to AuntBee]

Thanks, i'm actually doing this all the time