How does a person stop feeling sad, overwhelmed and generally hopeless. This feeling has stuck with me for almost all my life. I feel like a failure, ugly, unloved, outcast and am not able to fit in with the society. How do I stop feeling this shallow and hollow? The fact that I have gained weight even makes it worse. Jeez! I have never felt this ugly and alone in a very long time. How do I start making friends? I sit in my house alone the whole day Monday to Monday. I know all the holes there are on my walls. I would rather look at the wall alone than go out and meet people.
Meeting people makes me shake. I mean, I literally shake like I am having a panic attack. I have cut everybody from my life coz sometimes I feel they are way far ahead of me, or I don’t know, I am just not good with people. I don’t go anywhere.
I am alone. I don’t know what to do. I can’t work. A lot of unfished work is still lying on my computer. You see, working at home even makes it worse. Coz, I can’t finish my work, I can’t concentrate and I have already received three warnings of being fired if I don’t improve. I try, I really do, but I can’t just keep up. It makes me stressed even more. I mean, I am 24 I need to be working and taking care of my bills like everybody at my age is doing.
I am ashamed of saying this, but bathing everyday is a burden to me. I mean, I cant bathe and brush my teeth and take care of my hair the same day.
I cant wash utensils, do laundry and wash the house on the same day. It feels like too much work to do on the same day and honestly, I don’t have the strength to do.
How do I get out from this hole. How do people do it.