Depression from the past

recently, I've been overthinking things from my past that I did... like what the f*** was I thinking???!!! I feel like I was such a shitty person, I didn't care about others feelings or myself... How could I do those things, and how can my boyfriend even love me after knowing all of these things.

It is really weird because I just started feeling like this about 4 months ago when my OCD & anxiety started... So I am wondering if that's just kind of a side effect to this mental illness? Seriously, if you would have asked me about my past 6 months ago I would have laughed and told you anything you wanted to know...but right now I sometimes just feel so disgusted with myself.

I know it's in the past and there is nothing that I can do to change it, but I just hate feeling this way and want to know if anybody ever feels like this or has any tips to help me get over this feeling.

(Let me point out that rationally, I know that I didn't do anything TOO messed up... just drinking a lot, sleeping around, etc) but that is not the person that I am anymore and I hate that I ever was that person....

[aaronm]

I beat myself up daily for stupid decisions i have made in the past. Suggestions? I don't know but I'd be curious for tips also.

[Hidden in reply to aaronm]

It is easy for me to say who cares it’s in the past when talking about somebody else’s past! But for my own, it’s hard.

[aaronm in reply to Hidden]

Oh for sure. We are our own worst enemy.

[Chief123]

It is part of copingvwiyh mental illness. Past is behind you, dont stress about the future, most important, dont miss out on right now. Make choices that are good for you right now. Remind yourself you're human and learn to embrace and know yourself so you can forgive yourself and move on with your life. Past mistakes and mental illness dont define you. This is coming from someone who's been down the same road

[Hidden in reply to Chief123]

whats annoying is that I know this... I am going to school for social work and I know that this would be the same advice that Id give to somebody if they came in saying the exact same things. Sometimes I remind myself that nothing that I did was THAT bad and it led me to where I am today, but sometimes it just makes me feel so bad and it is just so frustrating. Thanks for the response xx

[crowningglory19]

Sometimes it's hard to let of of the past, and it kinda haunts us. I found that taking magnesium malate and ginseng helped me a lot! They have helped many others too! They calm the mind body and spirit and get rid of sticky negative thoughts that loop around. Much anxiety/depression is a deficiency of magnesium. Also, get outside, breathe fresh air, lay on grass, it grounds you again. Another thing that helps is volunteering so we get outside our own problems, it helps us as we help others. Forgive yourself, remember we all have a past and let of things that can't be changed. =)