Sometimes I think I’m crazy.
Idk if I have anxiety or depression or anything. But u have a lot of disturbing hoists just wandering in my tiny brain.
It’s a constant loud tsunami of thoughts. Like a constant reaction to all the stimuli and sensations around me.
I’d be walking and I’d feel, see and think so much things. From safety hazards, to omg there’s a huge mole on that persons face, to I have to finish this assignment, to I wonder how global warming is doing, to a random article I read a month ago.
It is constant. Never a single moment of peace up there in my head.
At times the random thoughts are random negative thoughts. Thoughts that I don’t need to have. Unnecessary ones. That sometimes I wonder if I’m consciously deciding to have these thoughts.
It’s as if I’m purposely falling into this pit of darkness, comfortable allowing the negativity and toxicity that I internally create to blanket me in a cozy corner.