Finding Happiness

Let me first publicly thank everyone again for their support over the last week. I just wanted to say something a bit unusually positive for a moment.

So as I write this I am at work. I have worked every day since August 5th and I might get some time off over Labor Day weekend but that isn’t guaranteed. Before anyone tells me I need time off I have vacation scheduled next month and I am really looking forward to it. In so many ways I am exhausted, physically, mentally and emotionally. My ex seems to be dodging me whenever we plan to finish the paperwork for our dissolution, I don’t feel any closer to finding a new job and I barely see my children now that school has started.

But as I sit here on lunch, I am actually happy. I can feel my anxiety, depression and exhaustion trying to tear me down from within and I know that my problems will never truly go away but I’ve found that optimism I’ve been missing for years. My confidence is returning slowly but surely, I have amazing new friends who support me and I know that while I will miss my children when I finally move out that it’s for the best because I can be happy for a change and the time I spend with them will be all the better for it.

So I wanted to take a moment and remind everyone who feels like their pain will never end that it can end. Hopefully you find what you need in life to be happy whether it’s an amazing friend, someone special, or something less relationship oriented, but until then I hope none of you ever truly give up hope. 🙂

[Agora1]

Beautifully said faulhallen as well as motivating. Thank you for sharing your thoughts

[fauxartist]

thank you for that faulhallen for sharing that very up-lifting and inspiring post. And your right....when my sister divorced finally...she had four kids and was worried for them about the effects of the divorce. She gathered them all together, I was there for her support and the kids, she said The most important thing was that it had nothing to do with them, and it was not their fault....it was between mom and dad, and they just can't live together any more , but that does not change that mom and dad love them very much.....and the littlest one chimed in during this very quite talk and said...'I am okay with that.....now I have two houses, two rooms and I'm good'....she was 6 at the time. The other three kids laughed and I knew they would be pretty okay, it's always difficult for everyone. And with both parents happy in their own lives, the kids were happier too because there wasn't the atmosphere at home any more.

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Thank you for sharing. Stories like that make me feel a bit better. I haven’t talked much with my daughter about it because of work but she seems to be handling it well. 🙂

[morenews]

thank you, faulhallen, for this post and sharing you felt happy ...it is very important with all those issues and problems, we have this little moment of happiness or peace...it helps us(i hope helps you) to keep going and fighting. It have made my morning : your post.

I agree : we are not alone in this wonderful community. Hugs and wishes for this weekend to feel ok, if not the best, but still ok, dear friend.

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Thank you, hugs and wishes for you as well. I hope you have a great weekend 🙂