First time... Not sure... So much to say.

[DNTDallasGBT]

Ive been suffering for most of my life, to now feeling like its the end. Majority of meds don't help. I feel like I'm a waste. Wth am I doing here. Why won't God take me already? I've died 4 times already, medically. I don't want this life anymore. For every ups, the crash is harder. I'm more alone now than ever. Even when those who try to be genuine, my anxiety points out an ulterior motive which becomes true.... This disease has caused me sooo much! Jobs. Relationships. Love for life. I'm 36 and can't connect like I use to. It became even harder. I just want to give up, but can't because I'm a fighter. I need someone to love me like I've never had in life.

[zevietnameseguy98]

It's so terrifying to think about what you have been through. If you made it out alive after all the disasters that hit you then nothing can ever take you down. You are born a fighter and you will keep on fighting with your head up straight. Always keep a hope and believe in yourself. We were all born for a reason. None of us is a waste of space. Your strength to hang in this life is a gift of God. Someday, someone who truly loves you and brings you up will walk into your life. Until then, you need to love yourself first. Giving yourself love is the first step of the healing process. The higher you go, the harder the fall but that's why you were given your strength. You will not give up on this and you will keep on moving. You are strong, believe in that. Best of luck, keep up the good fight because you are an inspiration with your strength against the brutality of life. xoxo

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Hello!

Loving yourself is truly what you need! It just seems so hard to do!! More than likely God hasn’t taken you because you’re far from finished here! Your purpose hasn’t been fulfilled yet. Right now, you have the opportunity to accept your difficulties and work towards a resolution. The work you do to heal will prepare you for the road ahead. I totally believe that! You’re being molded to better help someone else who’s struggling one day.

Don’t sabotage relationships and people who try to help you. Take their help at face value, thank them and move on without thinking negatively about their motives. Letting go of negativity is imperative for a happy existence. Always search for the positive!

I too have lost jobs and relationships due to my mental illness. That’s ok! Always pushing forward and letting go of the past. It is what it is! Make the most of what you have and live in today. Hope does exist for all of us! Fight for that hope! You can do this! Medication is only a piece of the puzzle. Don’t wait for the meds to correct the problem alone...😉 I’m wishing the best for you!!