Reaching out

[Eggsandbacon]

So I have decided to do something and seek some help. I’m tired of being tired and feeling hopeless. I’m tired of feeling like I can’t control anything or accomplish anything. I don’t like that I can’t afford to pay counseling and meet someone weekly to help me manage or find ways to cope with the anxiety and constant depression I feel on daily basis. Perhaps getting some feedback or getting some support that I’m not alone or judged Can help with the daily struggle.

I used to be the kind of person that would always seem that they had their stuff together. Managed to check in all the boxes. Fill all the expectations of society, peers, parents. Perhaps at one point it felt like it was easy, part of the process.

Somehow life happens and like a switch things that used to come easy are no longer simple. People that used to cheer on are gone.

I suppose I am at the phase where I’m wondering what happens next. How or where do I go? How can I make things the way they used to or improve the now.

-Me.

[dee_bells]

Getting on this support group is a start! I see a therapist that is is a sliding payment scale in my area.

I have personally pushed my friends and relatives away so they don’t contact me like they used to.

I was so out-going and no more.

Take that first step; meet a friend for lunch or a walk. You’ll do something positive and that’s a beginning but keep up up the momentum! You can do it! 🌸🌸🌸

[Eggsandbacon in reply to dee_bells]

Thank you, I guess I do try to go out. i just that once I’m out I just feel silly and uncomfortable and just want to go back home.

Most of the time I use the excuse of being tired to cut meetings short.

[fauxartist]

Even with this disease...life has major changes we have to endure because we cannot control people, places, or things...it just happens. We can only change ourselves really. And I'm glad your sharing here about it, I find it very healing and appreciate all the helpful comments from the people on this site, many of whom I consider friends, now that I have gotten to know them. They are very kind and compassionate people who understand this disease of depression and anxiety as they too live with it.

[Eggsandbacon in reply to fauxartist]

Thank you.

I do wish to be able to reach out to my peers or even anyone in the same situation, because I know it can be lonely. Sometimes just hearing comfort works like “it’s gona be ok” goes a long way.

Is just challenging for my peers to try to wrap their head around the fact that something might be off and they just rather avoid it, then try to help.

So when I was searching for support groups this came up, and I figured what’s the worst it can happen right?

[fauxartist in reply to Eggsandbacon]

friends and family that don't suffer from depression will find it hard to understand. Unless they walk in your shoes they won't be able to know that feeling of sadness and despair we get ...and it happens for no reason other than the fact our brain has a chemical imbalance...we don't need a reason to be sad...we just are. People who don't suffer from this just can't wrap their head around it. So it's very comforting to me as well to be on this site with others who do understand, without judgement, and know what your feeling on those dark days. I'm glad your here sharing...

[kenster1]

hi im sorry to hear of your struggles don't feel you have no help due to financial issues as that's not the case.im sure your gp could put you in touch with agencies in your local area.i feel that paying for help is wrong people string it out for financial gain.can you think deep and pinpoint a time in your life that you started to notice change in your life.had something happened in your life you thought you could deal with but its crept back into your thoughts of late.even note down things you have noticed that have changed and even talk things over with a close friend or relative and gather their thoughts to see if they have noticed change in you.eggs and bacon mmmmm put me in the mood.

[Eggsandbacon in reply to kenster1]

I did actually get a referral by my gp, but the place was still a bit pricey.

I suppose that maybe something greater will come out of the whole thing.

Maybe in due time things will look up. For all i know things could be looking up and I’m just way too caugh up to see it. Or so I tell myself.

Im just glad to have been able to let some thoughts out of my chest and get a response.

Kindness is out there and I like to believe the there is hope.

Thank you.