Be wise about your anxiaties as they can cause serious problems!

[Orangeblossom85]

Hi guys,

i used to be a pretty successful business woman. I run a hospitality business for 5 years, though I am 27. I did very good! And then one day it started to fall apart and the single reason for it all was me. First i become depressed and none action was possible to me. I let my phone call with no answer and I let my email to just fill up. The only thing i cared was money payments but that only lasted until i had my last penny. My business was earning well until my depression hit on, nevertheless bank allowed me to borrow great amount of money that gave me another three months of payments. And my costs were huge. Now as you suppose, I'm zero, with the debt growing each month on me. a

When my depression was gone, it shifted to fear and anxiety. Insomnia changed to oversleeping, and i can stay in bed with no problem for 16-20 hours. I still do not respond to anything. And that is what i wanted prevent you from.

Today morning i learned that i am being sued by one of the customers. Sued because I do own him money but also, and probably mostly, because i am not reliable. I will be courted only because for the last month I didn't respond to any of his phone calls, any of his emails, any of his post. I just couldn't. I was so afraid that i didn't read even those mails. He would send me even 5 mails within couple of minutes. And each time it would repeat i would just move further from my mailbox.

I could have probably avoid all this drama only if i would stand tall and break the fear and simply write back.

I really would like you guys to take actions even if they scare you out to death. Break the bad circle. Get out of your shelf. Do something that may make your life a bit easier. Act. Act especially then when all the problems pill up and the anxieties seem to be on its highest.

I would really wish, no-one steps in this cruel and bad of world that lacks empathy and understanding. That no-one cares to listen or to actually put themselves into someone else's shoes.

Stay strong no matter what!

I wish you courage!

[Onemoreface]

Thanks, Orangeblossom. Reading that was kind of inspiring. I know the feeling of being afraid to read email and look after daily demands. Being deep in a hole, it really sucks. Do you have someone you can ask to help walk you through the repairs to your situation? Maybe a sympathetic friend? Someone patient who won't criticize you.

I think a lot of us on here know that feeling of avoiding responsibilities and then feeling ashamed and struggling to find the confidence to move forward. It all feels pointless and sleeping is an effective escape. I hope you can find the strength to pick up and start again. Maybe telling your client about your mental health problems will stave off the court appearance.

[Orangeblossom85 in reply to Onemoreface]

Thank you Face! I see a lot of warmth in your answer. It gives strength. I truly lack support and empathy and I guess that’s why I feel so good at that website! I would love to be able to hug anyone as I feel my nerves being completely out of control. I’m scared, full of regret, worried and terribly sad.

Yesterday while walking back home I realized that my depression starts to kick in again... and today in the morning I opened that horrible mail.

[Smellycat123456]

Hi there baby, I know what your going through, I am going through the same.

Not acting on things can hurt you and destroy all that we are. I've been picking up the pieces for years now and this year will be the hardest. I want to give up but one thing keeps me going, my kids and today my daughter hurt my feelings and I fell in to depression and here I am again. I feel like a basketball hitting ground harder and harder and I'm loosing air, not being able to bounce any higher.

I have a list of problems and don't know where to turn to, so like AA I'm looking for the answers somewhere some how

I can feel your pain. All I can say is once you hit bottom there's no way but up.

[Elaine1963]

Thanks for sharing.

Deep breathes; 🦋

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Thank you for sharing.

Sorry for what you endured.

Every good wish 🌺🌺

[Susan512]

Hello Orangeblossom,

Sorry to hear what happened to you.....I hope things get better for you soon, I wish the best.